My PMS Poo Poo day
Man, Norma Jean hits the spot when u need heavy heavy metal christian music to help lift you up. Heavy metal is exactly what I need right now. I'm like totally PMSing, i've been up since 8:30 taking care of babies, and I wasn't able to see Justin today either. It's not fair! I'm so sick of doing absolutely nothing everyday and making nothing of myself, like having no car and having no job! It peeves me off to no extent. I feel like I'll never make anything of myself in this world and I'm never gonna get a car until I'm like 18.
It sucks that Justin's grandpa is so sick. Papa's such a great guy. I prayed last night for God to just take away his cancer, if that was his will. Bcuz I'm not sure if Justin and most of his family could deal with his death. I dislike funerals. A lot. But i dunno. Maybe it's just becuz I'm PMSing and in a bad mood that I feel this way. I dunno. The doctors gave him about 2 months to live. Justin was gonna see him today but he was getting too sick and so i wasn't able to see him either.
And none of Justin's parents are home to "watch us" (I'm still mad at my mom for that), so I can't go over there. And of course he doesn't wanna come over here cuz he doesn't wanna b bored to death. It hurts. I don't think he understands at sometimes how hard that is on me. Just to not want to come over becuz of my parents. It hurts. I can't change my parents. I can't change how they act or who they are or how many kids we have here. I don't think he'll ever understand.
Well, I'm gonna go. I'll probably go downstairs and mope around and do nothing. (as usual). Gosh, today sucks.
It sucks that Justin's grandpa is so sick. Papa's such a great guy. I prayed last night for God to just take away his cancer, if that was his will. Bcuz I'm not sure if Justin and most of his family could deal with his death. I dislike funerals. A lot. But i dunno. Maybe it's just becuz I'm PMSing and in a bad mood that I feel this way. I dunno. The doctors gave him about 2 months to live. Justin was gonna see him today but he was getting too sick and so i wasn't able to see him either.
And none of Justin's parents are home to "watch us" (I'm still mad at my mom for that), so I can't go over there. And of course he doesn't wanna come over here cuz he doesn't wanna b bored to death. It hurts. I don't think he understands at sometimes how hard that is on me. Just to not want to come over becuz of my parents. It hurts. I can't change my parents. I can't change how they act or who they are or how many kids we have here. I don't think he'll ever understand.
Well, I'm gonna go. I'll probably go downstairs and mope around and do nothing. (as usual). Gosh, today sucks.