So I haven't written in a while, missed me? =)
Well, it's the second week back at uni and I'm so tired already. Holidays were never meant to finish, dammit. I can't believe it was over so fast. I had a grand time; too much alcohol, tons of partying, a whole heap of money wasted, many friends and many more randoms, lots and lots and lots of good music... all excellent, really.
And then there were the emotional rollercoasters here and there, up and down... whatever, I made it. I'm just sick of it. This friendship thing is kicking my ass at the moment. I know that doesn't even make sense. *shrugs* I think I'm over it; the number of times I've been disappointed this holiday has gone through the roof, and I don't want to care anymore. It's sad, disappointing, and whatever other synonyms there are for when you finally reach the extremity of your acceptance, your tolerance, and become completely indifferent to people you once called "friends".
You're finally able to say: enough is enough, I don't need to make excuses for you anymore, I don't need your constant bullshit. I don't want your friendship anymore, because you ended it a long time ago. This is the point where I walk away and never come back.
I'm at that headspace right now. Last week, I was torn up just thinking about it. Now I've stopped caring. No regrets, right?
Makes me really appreciate my friends, all of you, who I still love to death even though I don't see you much these days!
So apart from all that emo crap, everything's still the same. The usual "I'm good but I could be better" feeling. I should learn to be satisfied with what I've got huh? Well, that will be my goal for this August... have a really good month where I be as happy as I can, and let all the bad shit slide. Maybe it'll work, maybe it won't.
But I want it to. I'm going to have a good month, and I'm going to make the most out of it... hopefully.
Hm, so this ended up being a bitchy entry. Oh well. I have a headache and I'm sleepy now. Time to go. But I think I'm going to make an effort to update this thing (and read my friend's list!) more often. It's very therapeutic... yay. Sleeptime, NOW.
And then there were the emotional rollercoasters here and there, up and down... whatever, I made it. I'm just sick of it. This friendship thing is kicking my ass at the moment. I know that doesn't even make sense. *shrugs* I think I'm over it; the number of times I've been disappointed this holiday has gone through the roof, and I don't want to care anymore. It's sad, disappointing, and whatever other synonyms there are for when you finally reach the extremity of your acceptance, your tolerance, and become completely indifferent to people you once called "friends".
You're finally able to say: enough is enough, I don't need to make excuses for you anymore, I don't need your constant bullshit. I don't want your friendship anymore, because you ended it a long time ago. This is the point where I walk away and never come back.
I'm at that headspace right now. Last week, I was torn up just thinking about it. Now I've stopped caring. No regrets, right?
Makes me really appreciate my friends, all of you, who I still love to death even though I don't see you much these days!
So apart from all that emo crap, everything's still the same. The usual "I'm good but I could be better" feeling. I should learn to be satisfied with what I've got huh? Well, that will be my goal for this August... have a really good month where I be as happy as I can, and let all the bad shit slide. Maybe it'll work, maybe it won't.
But I want it to. I'm going to have a good month, and I'm going to make the most out of it... hopefully.
Hm, so this ended up being a bitchy entry. Oh well. I have a headache and I'm sleepy now. Time to go. But I think I'm going to make an effort to update this thing (and read my friend's list!) more often. It's very therapeutic... yay. Sleeptime, NOW.