180 but here on earth
There are many things in my life right now I wish I had better control of. Some things I really cannot help, others I actually might have been able to exercise some initiative on rather than go with the flow but it seems to me somehow I am actually even engineering some of it and I'm not too sure I like it. I don't like the person I've been acting for the past week but it all seems like a survival instinct, a cowering into self-preservation. How useless and pathetic, but I really should get off my sorry ass and do something about the world around me. Life doesn't start after Thailand, life doesn't start after commissioning, life doesn't start after ord-ing. Life bloody started nineteen years and eight months ago and guess what? It is still going on. Time to wake up, Russ, and in the wise words of dear Ms Jay, move rapidly along. And set things damn straight right.