Time, you and I will face off just once more...
Ok, today just made a liar out of my last post. Today my Chem teacher gave us a ridiculous quiz on the first day. UGH, the one class I NEED to like, I already hate. Then I had Microeconomics. I have no clue what that is. I'm only taking it because they say I need it for pharmacy school. Then I had Eastern Religion. Gosh that's going to be my savior class. The teacher is young and very interesting. He's Zen Buddhist so he kinda knows what he's teaching us. I'll enjoy going to that. But the problem is all the time after classes. It didn't seem this hard to make friends in Texas. Like by the second day at Baylor John, Jose, and I had already formed the three amigos. Then came Mal, Molli, Lindsey, Aldo and Joey. We had our group and it was perfect. Then I added on Greg, Jon, Brandon, and Christyn. I have to say that people there are more out reaching. Like I try, but as an introverted person to begin with it's really hard. I keep trying to convince myself that I'll be ok but it doesn't seem so. I take these things far too deep. Gosh, and I hate to admit that I miss Baylor. I spend all my time hating places until I'm no longer there. Then I cry about how much I miss it. This time, I'm giving up early. All through high school I spent time trying to find real friends. Now, I just don't care. Why have them? Friends are just people that cause you to cry when you have to leave them. If I don't make any then, I don't cry simple as that. I do enough crying thinking about what I loss by leaving Texas. It's way too much for me to bear sometimes and I think that shows to other people. I guess that's why I don't get instant invites. I guess people can see behind the smile to the insecure person who desperately wants to be liked but knows that he won't. To that person that feels sorry for himself because he doesn't want anyone else to. Well I'm done with that. I'll be my friend. I'll be my confidant. I'll be the one who loves me. I'll be the one who will always be there. I'll be the one to hold me at night. I'll be the one to wipe away my tears. I'll be the one to make it all better. And I'll be the one who will never leave.