To Carol
There are no words for how I feel this morning after I read this post. http://outletmallgal.livejournal.com/5106.html while I am filled with emotions I have no words for all I can think is that I would have loved to have known her, known the real her and wish that things were different.
My very first fan fic ever was chapter 16 of Deconstructing Brian. I read it in the barn at my in-laws house, after we had to move in with them, after our dot.com company went under and Scott and I lost 16 million dollars on paper. I lost myself in that story once I found it and it healed wounds inside me. It helped me forgive CEO's that got tired and a CFO that went nuts and gave our money away.
I wrote Randall a fan letter begging to know more and to see if he was a show writer and to thank him for his obvious love for Brian Kinney. I can't tell you how much that story meant to me. It also meant the world to me because it was my path way to Queer Theories a story that would become an almost ghost like presence in my life. A story I love for so many reasons that counting them would quite possibly match it's page count ( I am just kidding Gael :)
So while I have tons of questions, and my emotions are all over the place. All I can say now is that Carol was one of us. She loved our boys, wrote for our boys and she was one of the boys.
To Carol. To Randall, and to Brian may they all rest in peace. This isn't a time to judge it's a time to mourn.
Thank you to besame-bj for the link.
My very first fan fic ever was chapter 16 of Deconstructing Brian. I read it in the barn at my in-laws house, after we had to move in with them, after our dot.com company went under and Scott and I lost 16 million dollars on paper. I lost myself in that story once I found it and it healed wounds inside me. It helped me forgive CEO's that got tired and a CFO that went nuts and gave our money away.
I wrote Randall a fan letter begging to know more and to see if he was a show writer and to thank him for his obvious love for Brian Kinney. I can't tell you how much that story meant to me. It also meant the world to me because it was my path way to Queer Theories a story that would become an almost ghost like presence in my life. A story I love for so many reasons that counting them would quite possibly match it's page count ( I am just kidding Gael :)
So while I have tons of questions, and my emotions are all over the place. All I can say now is that Carol was one of us. She loved our boys, wrote for our boys and she was one of the boys.
To Carol. To Randall, and to Brian may they all rest in peace. This isn't a time to judge it's a time to mourn.
Thank you to besame-bj for the link.