in sum..

[high_x_voltage]

2008 has been a time for changes and a bunch of new beginnings for a lot of people. i just hope everyone keeps in mind where they came from and the people who got them there. and thanks to everyone who got me where i am, don't think i'll ever forget it. at first i was hesitant about letting 08 rock as hard as it did, but i'm glad it won me over. i did a lot of healing this year and learned a lot about myself and the people i surround myself with. i realized that as much as you never want good things to end, they do and you have to take it and run with it. wishing something back to the way it was won't get you anywhere, not back there and not forward either. as much as change scares me and i like things to stay the same, i finally figured out that it's ok to be afraid of change as long as you embrace it. i stepped out of my comfort zone a lot this year. i started a lot of new relationships, fixed some old ones, and hopefully didn't fuck any up too terribly. i'm glad prom weekend happened and made me realize that i could open up with new people and actually make new friends. actually, i'm glad i went to prom in the first place because asking rob showed me that i actually first of all can be decisive and second of all that i have some self-confidence and can step out of my little safe box occasionally.  and i showed my mom that i can look hot as hell in a green dress even though she says i don't look good in green. but yeah, it's going to be so weird that things can't be " *whatever* '08! " anymore. and a little annoying that 2009 is not as even, round or cute as 2008 when written. i'm starting the new year and new semester with three great girls in my dorm, which will be awesome. i'm going to break out of my shell even more this year. i'm going to stop being such a pessimist and let good things excite me. i realized that a lot this year. i basically just exist. the bare minimum. i do things and go places, but i never really REALLY want to. like it wouldn't matter if i didn't but it was ok that i did kind of thing. what's that all about? who does that? motivation is key. i need some. and i plan to get some this year. i can honestly say i love each and every person who has been a part of my life this year, some who have stayed as long as 14 years now, some who i've only known four months. let's make it count, everyone!

i can honestly say, in keeping with our senior theme, NO REGRETS OH EIGHT!  2008, you've done me well.  2009, bring it, bitch.