omfg
YAYNESS:
i'm in NY, my beautiful hometown... -sigh- how do i survive? i slept like a baby last night...i dozed off and had a peaceful sleep listening to the traffic noise and music, etc. i know this sounds weird but without the noise i can't sleep well. anyways i met up wiht some of my old friends, not all, and i couldnt believe how much had changed in 10 months. i guess i was naive to think that nothing would change once i left. it turns out the entire group practically fell apart. jessica only hangs out with susmita and daisy... laura and nadine and others kkinda keep to their group (kinda like always but i still love them) and astrid and nic are still close. according to astrid as soon as the year atrated and i wasn't there, the unity borke. apparently i held the group together. that hurt. that impacted me more than anything really has in the past few months. anything hurtful people have said to me recently seemed like shit compared to that statement. she made me feel like i abandoned them for selfish reasons, like i ruined their friendships and their sophmore year. it was horrible.
worst of all, they still hold their grudges from last year, while i got over them. it was awkward at certain points.
and when they saw me (i decided to "surprise" --astrid and nic knew i was coming-- some of my old friends by popping up at their gym class b/c they went to the park everyone flipped out. basically all they said for ten straight minutes was "omg, it can't be. yes it is. no its not, omg VALERIE! omg your dog is soooooo cute! where have you BEEN?!?!?"
then after that i tried to talk to everyone individually but instead all i got was a cricle around me... i was completely bombarded and crowded the entire time. i love all my friends and i missed them so much, but a crowd focusing on me was the last thing i wanted. then again i'm being stupid becase usually if you havent seen someone for 10 months, you're freakin bound to crowd them...
anyways i got to talk to laura (^.^) and nicolette (^.^) and astrid (^.^) the most and i barely got to tlak to jeremy (i love his sexay jewish self), christine, steph (mi colombiana amiga!), jessica (my fellow bird lover! i loves you!) susmita, marina, daisy, geri, and etc. (i'm getting tired of typing)
john, please call me soon we needs to talk. and ummm
oh yes i heart you caitlin! and i'm going to try and call you tomorrow.
ooh and apparently on this crappy computer in ny, myspace.com wont let me login. i'm going to go to the library tom.
i'm in NY, my beautiful hometown... -sigh- how do i survive? i slept like a baby last night...i dozed off and had a peaceful sleep listening to the traffic noise and music, etc. i know this sounds weird but without the noise i can't sleep well. anyways i met up wiht some of my old friends, not all, and i couldnt believe how much had changed in 10 months. i guess i was naive to think that nothing would change once i left. it turns out the entire group practically fell apart. jessica only hangs out with susmita and daisy... laura and nadine and others kkinda keep to their group (kinda like always but i still love them) and astrid and nic are still close. according to astrid as soon as the year atrated and i wasn't there, the unity borke. apparently i held the group together. that hurt. that impacted me more than anything really has in the past few months. anything hurtful people have said to me recently seemed like shit compared to that statement. she made me feel like i abandoned them for selfish reasons, like i ruined their friendships and their sophmore year. it was horrible.
worst of all, they still hold their grudges from last year, while i got over them. it was awkward at certain points.
and when they saw me (i decided to "surprise" --astrid and nic knew i was coming-- some of my old friends by popping up at their gym class b/c they went to the park everyone flipped out. basically all they said for ten straight minutes was "omg, it can't be. yes it is. no its not, omg VALERIE! omg your dog is soooooo cute! where have you BEEN?!?!?"
then after that i tried to talk to everyone individually but instead all i got was a cricle around me... i was completely bombarded and crowded the entire time. i love all my friends and i missed them so much, but a crowd focusing on me was the last thing i wanted. then again i'm being stupid becase usually if you havent seen someone for 10 months, you're freakin bound to crowd them...
anyways i got to talk to laura (^.^) and nicolette (^.^) and astrid (^.^) the most and i barely got to tlak to jeremy (i love his sexay jewish self), christine, steph (mi colombiana amiga!), jessica (my fellow bird lover! i loves you!) susmita, marina, daisy, geri, and etc. (i'm getting tired of typing)
john, please call me soon we needs to talk. and ummm
oh yes i heart you caitlin! and i'm going to try and call you tomorrow.
ooh and apparently on this crappy computer in ny, myspace.com wont let me login. i'm going to go to the library tom.