Finding yourself
Is there a way to fine ones self where time speeds by so fast where thoughts consume the entire body? To fine ones self in the most unusual chaotic place may be the best. To reach inside and really discover look back and reflect and take time to analyze every decision you have ever made. Do not regret them but embrace them. Look to the times where you second guessed yourself and realize that by doing so you have grown. Growing up is not easy. If only we were given magic beans and fairy dust it may have made things easier. But who wants the easy way out. You wouldn’t have learned anything. You wouldn’t have had those fights or mad those friend. But hey, you wouldn’t have cried. Crying cleanses the soul but damn its hard to do you try so hard to hold back those tears and try hard not to let your lip quiver. But if only you would stop trying so hard and just let yourself cry then you would feel better. Deep breaths work miracles but who wants a miracle. You do and you know it. One miracle you wished never happened was falling in love. Love is bittersweet but eats your inside piece by piece but everything needs to eat right? Maybe finding yourself is hard and maybe impossible maybe it will happen at a movie or some insane family function or a concert when everyone is flipping their bics or maybe under the stars or reading a fantastic book,. But you will find yourself and maybe soon maybe not. But its tough and a long road but everyone does it eventually. But it’s up to you when you will discover yourself. And how you do it and why and all those questions will float by you on silver lined cloud while you lay on a dock getting eaten by mosquito’s.