Tear me down: a public beta free-for-all
I'm doing something a little different. Something a little risky, and maybe a lot self-indulgent, but I thought I'd take my chances and see what happens.
I told myself I wasn't going to write any fic after The Void. That thing drained me and sort of made me want to never write fic ever ever again. But of course, when you tell yourself you're not going to do something, that's usually when you do it.
I've been struggling that last few days with the need to sit down and write but having zero inspiration whatsoever. But last night...or this morning, rather, I sat down and forced myself to start writing. I picked a pairing and just…wrote.
Now. The point of this entry:
I’m posting this story here and leaving it open for any and all criticism. This is your chance to tear down my writing. I want to know what I’m doing right, what I’m doing wrong, what works, what doesn’t, what you like about my writing, and what you hate (because I know there has to be something).
*This is open to my other writings as well. If there's something you've loved or hated about any of my previous stories, please tell me.
*This is also a public entry, so if you feel like pimping it out, do it :)
Anonymous posting is allowed, so feel free to post anon and tell me whatever you want, guilt free. Don’t worry about hurting my feelings, I take criticism very well, I promise.
Title: Let it Go
Pairing: Jensen Ackles/Jared Padalecki (Supernatural RPF)
Rating: PG-13
Length: 342
Genre: Drabble, slash
Warning: Angst
Disclaimer: Not true. Never happened.
A/N: This is the first time I've written for both this pairing and the fandom. You don't need to know either one to read the story, so hopefully you still give it a shot even if you're not familiar with them.
I'm honestly not familiar at all with Jensen and Jared. I'm more familiar with their characters. But I do have an image of the actors in my head that differs a lot from their characters so I tried to do my best to not confuse the two.
Now, have at it!
Jensen quickly spun back around, “And what, Jared!”
“What do you mean ‘what’?” A wide smile broke across Jared’s face and he laughed.
Jensen flinched at the sound, “I’m serious, Jare.” He was frustrated. Frustrated with Jared’s smile, and his laugh, and all he wanted to do was shake him until that goddamn gleam in his eyes darkened to something Jensen was a little more comfortable with. Something a little less…together.
Jared looked at him for a long moment. His eyes turned serious, but never lost that light that scared the hell out of Jensen. Finally Jared sighed and looked away, “I don’t know, Jen. Look, forget I said anything” his voice trailed off and he started to turn away.
“Hey,” Jensen’s voice was steady and hard as he reached out to grab hold of Jared’s arm, “Don’t you fucking dare.”
Jared turned to him, his eyes wide with an innocence Jensen knew was completely without pretense, “What?”
“I said, don’t you fucking dare,” his voice quavered slightly, “You cannot say something like that and expect me to just drop it, okay? We can’t…you can’t…” Jensen faltered. He was getting angry, and he didn’t need to be. He sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose, willing himself to relax.
His voice was soft when he spoke again, “We can’t…okay?” he frowned, “You know that. Right?”
Jared smiled a little, a sad understanding tugging at the corners, “Yeah…Yeah, I know” he quickly looked away. Jensen lifted his hand to reach out, but then hesitated. He stood with his hand raised awkwardly for a moment, and finally gave up and let it fall back to his side.
The air turned thick and uncomfortable, and Jensen shifted nervously as he watched Jared shove his hands in his pockets and stare at the floor.
“I’m sorry” Jared murmured softly after a few moments.
Jensen’s chest tightened and he took a deep breath. He looked into Jared’s eyes, still bright with something Jensen refused to believe was hope, and blinked back the sting of tears, “Don’t be.”