there ain't no party..
so caitlin came this weekend, and it was awesome. passion party was so much fun, so much girly fun, no more details than that, haha. :) i <3 my ra kat! (props to new ra jimmy as well.. wink) all the drama seems to happen when my friends from port come to new paltz, but everything worked out, so that's great. :) random people always seem to show up when my friends come too, it's amusing. ah well, everyone can make new friends at once. :)
i live my life like a movie. everything always relates back to the beginning, i'm looking for some meaning in the end. i kind of wish i would stop living as if someone is watching me and my story has to be cohesive. i analyze too much, i am too self reflective and it's starting to become a problem that whenever i'm bored i seem to pile my mind with garbage that just makes me upset. i'm getting better at this though, i promise. a little bit at a time.
how can i just let go?