i know i suck.
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it's true. i feel like a horrible person and an even worse friend for what i had to cancel. and i am. it's bad. and i suck. but i have a four hundred dollar hospital bill that is six months overdue. i have to pay almost fifty dollars every month for my prescription because i don't have health insurance. i have bill collectors banging down my door because i haven't even made one payment on my student loans yet...because i couldn't afford to. but with this job, it's not a problem. and that's why i have to be a bitch. because i need to take care of these things NOW. and i hate it. because it means having to be an adult and do the adult thing and, unfortunately, it sucks a lot of the time.
at any rate. i've never felt worse about anything.