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i can't believe i am up. i can't believe i am up scared shitless. it finally occurred to me that i should go on the online bookstore and look up the books i need to buy for my courses. i'm not surprised by two out of three of my anthro courses. but for my third course, cross listed with french, titled "embodiment" has mr hyperventilating. so there are only 5 books required, but two of them, the theory books (satre and merleau-ponty) are over 500 pages each!! i don't know what i am going to do if they fall in a week where a paper is due or if there is heavy reading for other courses. and what scared me even more was that all five books were also doubled up in the basket in FRENCH TITLES. so i'm not sure if the class is being taught bilingually or i mean, i don't know what to make of it. but i have to take this course! i don't know what else to take. especially if i am studying africa and post-colonialism and want to concentrate on "critical theory". i just have to bite the bullet and take it. so much of this is reminiscent of my first quarter in undergrad, where a combination of being way in over my head coursework wise, too much partying, and brain rusty from an extended vacation, caused me to crash and burn in a big way. i also hate fall quarter and the nervous anxiety that it brings. i am really scared. i think i need to email the professor for a syllabus. i think i need some air.