Reprinted from April 29, 2004 -- interestingly, my views have not really changed
Sign of Silence
I've looked all over my room and I can't find my book on invisibility. The only reason I want it is because it has the Rosicrucian Manifesto in it; and while I have a number of books that might have the document reprinted within, it is the only one that I know for certain contains it. It briefly amused me to think that the book made itself invisible, just to spite me, since I have a rather low opinion of it and it is only in my library as the result of a shot in the dark nearly a decade ago at the beginning of my "occult phase." Sadly, the bulk of the book is New Age chatter about visualizations and pseudo-science which basically boils down to say that, if you believe the authors, Einstein says it's possible for you to think a silver cloud of invisibility around yourself. I'm not sayin' it isn't possible, I'm just sayin' I've found better ways to make myself invisible, including one method which is acknowledged in the Rosicrucian Manifesto, and meditation on which was the reason I was trying to find the book in the first place.
The method in question is not a manner of allowing light to pass through one's more solid matter, but is nothing more than the simple tricks of blending. I don't have the exact quote I was looking for, but the idea is simply to dress in the clothes of the land, whether they be your own or not. I am conservative in appearance and in polite talk; my family and employers are largely Republican, and have no idea that my own views are so starkly liberal and libertarian, that I view Bush Family "antithesis" Bill Clinton, way the hell on the other side of the spectrum from the new American Royalty, as being a rabidly totalitarian fascist himself (the only real difference being that one is a Jesus-Kissing War-Mongering Robber Baron from Maine with the Texas Accent, and the other an Ass-Grabbing War-Mongering Con-Man with Funny Syntax--"the meaning of 'is'?" Please). Conversely, I am sure that many of my liberal friends with whom I more casually associate don't have much of an idea that I hold fast the notion that the best government is one that strictly limits the powers of the state, and gives no power to the people whatsoever. Vox Populi rarely is, and it is never the best policy by which to run a country. Libertarian Fascism let's call it; the absolute rule of the state being the freedom of each individual human being, limited in action to preventing the restriction of the wills of the people by any power, whether that power be another country, the High Court, poverty, pollution, ignorance or a section of the people turning on their neighbors (they may turn on themselves at will). Some of my friends would be to horrified to know that I value Freedom over Democracy. I'm just interested in whatever works, and if all political systems eventually degenerate into Fascism (as Communism, Socialism, Monarchism, etc. have shown to do, and as Democracy does so before our eyes), why not focus on creating the most efficient, protective and friendly Fascism possible?
I hold these views strongly, but I also hold them close, keeping them hidden behind a mask of normalcy and conformity, along with other things I prefer people not see, or at least not know are mine. It is not that I am not proud of my views; I am confident in my opinions. But there are times to keep quiet, when to be different makes one a target. How would the outspoken American Fascist fare on Main Street, USA? Or in Washington? Just because I don't tell you what I'm thinking doesn't mean I don't think I'm right. It's simply a matter of staying safe. I am quiet today, but I couldn't hold such strong views as I do without believing, or at least hoping, that the time of speech and openness will come. Is that not what America was founded on? But I don't feel safe anymore. I'm being offered Totalitarianism and being told it's freedom, when I know it's not. But so many others think it is. It is safer to blend. To remain unnoticed. To stay invisible.
For now.
I've looked all over my room and I can't find my book on invisibility. The only reason I want it is because it has the Rosicrucian Manifesto in it; and while I have a number of books that might have the document reprinted within, it is the only one that I know for certain contains it. It briefly amused me to think that the book made itself invisible, just to spite me, since I have a rather low opinion of it and it is only in my library as the result of a shot in the dark nearly a decade ago at the beginning of my "occult phase." Sadly, the bulk of the book is New Age chatter about visualizations and pseudo-science which basically boils down to say that, if you believe the authors, Einstein says it's possible for you to think a silver cloud of invisibility around yourself. I'm not sayin' it isn't possible, I'm just sayin' I've found better ways to make myself invisible, including one method which is acknowledged in the Rosicrucian Manifesto, and meditation on which was the reason I was trying to find the book in the first place.
The method in question is not a manner of allowing light to pass through one's more solid matter, but is nothing more than the simple tricks of blending. I don't have the exact quote I was looking for, but the idea is simply to dress in the clothes of the land, whether they be your own or not. I am conservative in appearance and in polite talk; my family and employers are largely Republican, and have no idea that my own views are so starkly liberal and libertarian, that I view Bush Family "antithesis" Bill Clinton, way the hell on the other side of the spectrum from the new American Royalty, as being a rabidly totalitarian fascist himself (the only real difference being that one is a Jesus-Kissing War-Mongering Robber Baron from Maine with the Texas Accent, and the other an Ass-Grabbing War-Mongering Con-Man with Funny Syntax--"the meaning of 'is'?" Please). Conversely, I am sure that many of my liberal friends with whom I more casually associate don't have much of an idea that I hold fast the notion that the best government is one that strictly limits the powers of the state, and gives no power to the people whatsoever. Vox Populi rarely is, and it is never the best policy by which to run a country. Libertarian Fascism let's call it; the absolute rule of the state being the freedom of each individual human being, limited in action to preventing the restriction of the wills of the people by any power, whether that power be another country, the High Court, poverty, pollution, ignorance or a section of the people turning on their neighbors (they may turn on themselves at will). Some of my friends would be to horrified to know that I value Freedom over Democracy. I'm just interested in whatever works, and if all political systems eventually degenerate into Fascism (as Communism, Socialism, Monarchism, etc. have shown to do, and as Democracy does so before our eyes), why not focus on creating the most efficient, protective and friendly Fascism possible?
I hold these views strongly, but I also hold them close, keeping them hidden behind a mask of normalcy and conformity, along with other things I prefer people not see, or at least not know are mine. It is not that I am not proud of my views; I am confident in my opinions. But there are times to keep quiet, when to be different makes one a target. How would the outspoken American Fascist fare on Main Street, USA? Or in Washington? Just because I don't tell you what I'm thinking doesn't mean I don't think I'm right. It's simply a matter of staying safe. I am quiet today, but I couldn't hold such strong views as I do without believing, or at least hoping, that the time of speech and openness will come. Is that not what America was founded on? But I don't feel safe anymore. I'm being offered Totalitarianism and being told it's freedom, when I know it's not. But so many others think it is. It is safer to blend. To remain unnoticed. To stay invisible.
For now.