(5) everything is shattered...
i took the first step. do i really know if it was the right thing to do? no, but i suppose i'll find out along the way like i normally do. we're not speaking to each other again until i am to go to florida--the 19th of december. that's the plan anyway--my plan, that is. there's so many bad feelings between the both of us, i'm not sure how we're supposed to overcome them. this small break may be just what's needed for me to put my thoughts into order. i'm not sure what he needs, but at the moment i'm more concerned about me. what that says, i don't really know....or care. i'm incredibly tired.
one of my favorite people in the world finally got a livejournal. 0pinkbong0 , or ademilola, has finally decided to grace me with her presence. welcome aboard babe. see what angst i'm full of that i don't spout to you? it's quite interesting(or not) really.
i don't know what else to say about anything right now. i could try, but all that i'd end up with would be utter nonsense. i'll choose the better option and end it now.
edit: okay, i'm a big fat liar. i do care. i care too much..... but feel helpless. i figure lying to myself won't help anything. i'm done.
one of my favorite people in the world finally got a livejournal. 0pinkbong0 , or ademilola, has finally decided to grace me with her presence. welcome aboard babe. see what angst i'm full of that i don't spout to you? it's quite interesting(or not) really.
i don't know what else to say about anything right now. i could try, but all that i'd end up with would be utter nonsense. i'll choose the better option and end it now.
edit: okay, i'm a big fat liar. i do care. i care too much..... but feel helpless. i figure lying to myself won't help anything. i'm done.