Confusion with a slight mix of depression...
*sighs sadly* As soon as i think i've got everything in my life figured out a wrench gets thrown into it...This last wrench just happens to be that my ex and i have started hanging out a lot more recently. he's got a girlfriend who's name is Gina and i've Alex. unfortunately i've come to realize that i was an idiot for giving sam up over 2 years ago. if we'd stayed together we'd have been dating for somewhere around 3 years. our anniversary would have been June 15th. i blame this sudden realization on the fact that at my party it seemed as if he and i were sort of forced together...that and he was asked a number of questions by people that really made me realize what a great guy i'd given up. but i also had to realize that he and i both had others we both cared about very much. *sigh* and as much as i kind of want him back, i know i'm not willing to give Alex up and i can't ask him to give Gina up if i'm not willing to give Alex up. so now i'm just stuck dealing with my decision....