LAN and Friends.

[hiduck]

Hehehehe, just because i could, i etched my name on my bottle of kahlua with my ring, yes.. it cuts glass! lol.

it prolly is the alcohol kicking in, seems like everything is funny... though beating the crap out of people at LAN parties is fun too.

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[ladydragonstar]

"...dispensing advice about how to deal with an ex wasnt something that was easy." I wasn't asking for advice so much as venting my frustration of missing Michael and Collette and confessed that I was still in love with him. No amount of advice is going to make me love him any less nor speed up the healing process because (as I'm sure you're well aware) love takes time to grow and time to let go. I've been having trouble with just as Michael did in the beginning. I was just late in admitting that I have feelings for him and I was too late in finding the opportunity to make amends and try to heal what the past made us into. I would gladly take him as my boyfriend as I believe that I've been doing fairly well on my self improvement and because my anger is gone it's just left the raw feeling of being burned from missing someone who (yes I know go ahead and roll your eyes at this...) still feels like my other half and soul mate. It's going to take me longer than he to get over it and to be completely honest, I feel volunerable to that.

And it's been scaring me a bit but also knowing that I'm not hiding anything from anyone and trying to ignore what my heart has been telling me all this time and therefore lying to myself, I can cope with his anger and rejection better. I miss him Amy. I miss him very much. I've all the advice in the world and though the support is nice, I know people are siding with him so I can move on. Least, I hope that's the reasoning for the hurt I've received from non-equal supporters of Michael and Shannon and are more one sided than what's been experienced in the past when we had problems.

I'm sure I'll be fine and I'll be ok. And I'm sorry Corning is being a bitch to you. I wish I could give you a massage but my ankle is still messed up and trying my massage mechanics just proved not too smart. Give me some time and I'll be down with my table. *hugs* I hope you're doing okay though, and tell Brad I said hello.

-Shan