(no subject)
I suck at battlefield 2. plain and simple.
so when i have like 9 people at this LAN party who can easily pick me off, and laugh at it... well. doesnt make me too happy. have you ever gotten so mad you cant have people joke/talk to you/ or tell you anything? you just want to be held. or at least play a round of battlefield where i win.
i Re- evaluated my spending today. i realized, the only reason i want to get a computer is so i can play battlefield, but im getting soo discouraged at it.. and i know that practice makes perfect.. but when i know that Brad and Brad Sr are just gonna cream the shit out of me when they see me.. doesnt make me feeel better.
i havent been sleeping that well, havent been eating all that well either... so maybe i just need to eat my B vitamins so that way i can start feeeling better.
i never feel this way *before* my period. so this is kinda out of the normal... well.. for a bit at least. i remember when this was NORMAL. and i wasnt ok with that. but i noticed that when i started taking my b witamins and stuff... i started feeling better. even though this was about hte time that i met Brad for the first time. so im not sure really.
Keyboards make me angry... especailly when i cant type what i want to... it irritates me when i write a word twiceover because my fingers hit other keys.. so if theres any words i missed.. dont met me know.. ill prolly see it when i read my entry after submitting.
and yes... im sure you can be smart and point out "you can preview or spell check!" :-B
yes i know. but like i said... when i feel like this.. i dont give a fuck.
i cant eat anything anymore without feeling like i gotta run to the bathroom, the doctors cant find anything wrong with me or anyhting... test after test... boy does it fucking irritate me.
Just as i want people to pay attn to me, they dont. which makes me feel worse. when people ask me something: i get mad. it inturupts my train of thought.
i guess i cant blame people for not paying attn to the grump here. but i think thats making it all worse. im sure ill feel better later. i just wish i knew how. normally i feel better when i laugh.. but i cant even laugh! it makes me mad.
so when i have like 9 people at this LAN party who can easily pick me off, and laugh at it... well. doesnt make me too happy. have you ever gotten so mad you cant have people joke/talk to you/ or tell you anything? you just want to be held. or at least play a round of battlefield where i win.
i Re- evaluated my spending today. i realized, the only reason i want to get a computer is so i can play battlefield, but im getting soo discouraged at it.. and i know that practice makes perfect.. but when i know that Brad and Brad Sr are just gonna cream the shit out of me when they see me.. doesnt make me feeel better.
i havent been sleeping that well, havent been eating all that well either... so maybe i just need to eat my B vitamins so that way i can start feeeling better.
i never feel this way *before* my period. so this is kinda out of the normal... well.. for a bit at least. i remember when this was NORMAL. and i wasnt ok with that. but i noticed that when i started taking my b witamins and stuff... i started feeling better. even though this was about hte time that i met Brad for the first time. so im not sure really.
Keyboards make me angry... especailly when i cant type what i want to... it irritates me when i write a word twiceover because my fingers hit other keys.. so if theres any words i missed.. dont met me know.. ill prolly see it when i read my entry after submitting.
and yes... im sure you can be smart and point out "you can preview or spell check!" :-B
yes i know. but like i said... when i feel like this.. i dont give a fuck.
i cant eat anything anymore without feeling like i gotta run to the bathroom, the doctors cant find anything wrong with me or anyhting... test after test... boy does it fucking irritate me.
Just as i want people to pay attn to me, they dont. which makes me feel worse. when people ask me something: i get mad. it inturupts my train of thought.
i guess i cant blame people for not paying attn to the grump here. but i think thats making it all worse. im sure ill feel better later. i just wish i knew how. normally i feel better when i laugh.. but i cant even laugh! it makes me mad.