oh, you know, life.
Warning: Don't read if you don't want to read about me venting. It is intended to help me get a few things out...not for you to freak out because I am venting on livejournal. If you don't want to read you don't have to.
I thought that it would be easier by now to write out what I'm feeling and what is going on by now but its not. I've been sitting here for 10 minutes trying to get things out but it just is not working. My friend Ashley left yesterday for Texas and then will be going to Romania on Wed. I just hope she knows how much I care about her and how much I love her. I tried but I couldn't hold it together very well. I cried alot the night before. I held it together pretty well at the airport tho I think. only cried a bit there. since I got home yesterday I've been kind of a wreck tho. Please keep her in your prayers. Our other friend Ashleigh is also gone at camp. Alot of times they and Patty are the only people who keep me going and I'm finding it hard to keep my spirits high when being able to talk to Ashleigh is pretty limited and talking to Ashley is...well nearly impossible. She called Patty for a bit yesterday and atleast texted Ashleigh. I'm happy to know that her flights to Texas went well and that shes still very excited. I wish that I could talk to her but I guess I will just have to wait until my time comes. It didn't help that everyone in my family has been jerks since I got home. Well...they've all been kind of jerks for a while but yesterday was pretty bad. Atleast my mother admited last night that shes being bitchy to me lately and taking her anger that she has because of my dad out on me. Thing is, shes admitted to this before and she still continues to do it. Then today my sister wouldn't let me use her car and my dad took my car to work so I couldn't go to an appointmet that I had scheduled and some how I ended up getting lectured by my mother about it being my fault. I still don't really understand that but I'm sure my mother will explain it to me when she gets home...joy. Thats all im really goin to write about my family being jerks right now. Angela and Stacy are leaving in a few days for a month also. I kind of feel like everyone that holds me together is either leaving me or being jerks. Oh, and p.s. I hate how easy I am to just simply forget about. Theres atleast 5 people I can think of right now that I miss greatly and that I was really close to at school that have yet to IM me without me IMing them or have yet to give me a call or have yet to return my phone calls. Its really hard thinking about the fact that its easy for them to just not even want to say a simple hello online. And don't think I've not put in any effort. I've IMed them all numerous times, left messages on their walls, and called a few of them. I'm starting to stop now though because I don't want to bother them if they don't care to talk to me. I say that I'm going to stop trying to contact people who don't want to talk to me all the time but it often only lasts a few weeks at most but we'll see.
Well this has helped some. Anyways, I hope you are all having a wonderful summer!
I thought that it would be easier by now to write out what I'm feeling and what is going on by now but its not. I've been sitting here for 10 minutes trying to get things out but it just is not working. My friend Ashley left yesterday for Texas and then will be going to Romania on Wed. I just hope she knows how much I care about her and how much I love her. I tried but I couldn't hold it together very well. I cried alot the night before. I held it together pretty well at the airport tho I think. only cried a bit there. since I got home yesterday I've been kind of a wreck tho. Please keep her in your prayers. Our other friend Ashleigh is also gone at camp. Alot of times they and Patty are the only people who keep me going and I'm finding it hard to keep my spirits high when being able to talk to Ashleigh is pretty limited and talking to Ashley is...well nearly impossible. She called Patty for a bit yesterday and atleast texted Ashleigh. I'm happy to know that her flights to Texas went well and that shes still very excited. I wish that I could talk to her but I guess I will just have to wait until my time comes. It didn't help that everyone in my family has been jerks since I got home. Well...they've all been kind of jerks for a while but yesterday was pretty bad. Atleast my mother admited last night that shes being bitchy to me lately and taking her anger that she has because of my dad out on me. Thing is, shes admitted to this before and she still continues to do it. Then today my sister wouldn't let me use her car and my dad took my car to work so I couldn't go to an appointmet that I had scheduled and some how I ended up getting lectured by my mother about it being my fault. I still don't really understand that but I'm sure my mother will explain it to me when she gets home...joy. Thats all im really goin to write about my family being jerks right now. Angela and Stacy are leaving in a few days for a month also. I kind of feel like everyone that holds me together is either leaving me or being jerks. Oh, and p.s. I hate how easy I am to just simply forget about. Theres atleast 5 people I can think of right now that I miss greatly and that I was really close to at school that have yet to IM me without me IMing them or have yet to give me a call or have yet to return my phone calls. Its really hard thinking about the fact that its easy for them to just not even want to say a simple hello online. And don't think I've not put in any effort. I've IMed them all numerous times, left messages on their walls, and called a few of them. I'm starting to stop now though because I don't want to bother them if they don't care to talk to me. I say that I'm going to stop trying to contact people who don't want to talk to me all the time but it often only lasts a few weeks at most but we'll see.
Well this has helped some. Anyways, I hope you are all having a wonderful summer!