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So yesterday I was reading on the couch and I feel asleep and had a little dream and the woman in the dream said this to me: ""it is impossible to do everything worth while in the world. therefore you must live in the moment, forgive yourself for every mistake and for every missed opportunity and make the most of the time you have left." This is alot more encouraging and positive than the dreams that I have been having recently. I don't know that that all really makes sense but it makes sense to me. Its kind of weird that I had that dream yesterday because it seems as though yesterday everything just kind of fell into place to get better and I'm really happy about it. Although I have been trying to make changes pretty much all year for the first time I have seen that things are starting to change for me and I'm optimistic that it will stick this time. Unfortunitly its kind of bittersweet.......I'll explain that later...now is not the time. but anyways even though I regret drinking a bit on monday night I am starting to think that it is was a good thing because it proved to myself that I am starting to realize when it is dumb for me to drink, when it is okay for me to drink and hopefully when I've had enough to drink for myself.