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So I am in Indiana right now hanging out at my sister's soririty house. She is out with her friends and I am here because a. Alcohol is the devil (no, i dont think literally think alcohol is the devil for everyone...but i know it is my worst enemy) and b. I should be studying. Although I chose to stay in I can't help but think about how alone i feel. :-\ its all pretty much my fault because of the pain i've caused some other people too. I kinda talked to my grandma today, not giving her any details but just telling her that I screwed up big time. She said I need to forgive myself. Its kind of a hard thing when you've ruined anything and everything important to you tho. Well, I will take that back, obviously I havnt ruined the relationship with my grandmother and that is important to me, but if she knew what happened and some things that have gone on this year she would be disappointed in me too. I basically feel like im a disappointment to my family, friends and myself. Where do I go from here?