Some Part Out Of My Mind

[hidingwhileicry]

Lets see maybe its time for an update. But where to begin, *starts thinking* sometimes I wish that I could express myself better, because then maybe I could do better in so many things. But I know that I couldn’t. Sometimes I wish that I could just hide away from the world because I’m so afraid of it. I love to hide from people, make them think that I’m someone but yet I’m so far from what they think that I am. Its like I have to secretive because I don’t want to set myself up for getting hurt over and over again. Know that I don’t cut or anything like that, so don’t even think that. Myself I think its really retarded to do that, I get away from life with writing, I love to write, I’m a writer and I say it proudly. Maybe everything I write isn’t the happiest thing in the world, but who writes nothing but happy stuff, sure in the hell not me. Everything happens to someone, everyone doesn’t have a good day everyday. Everyone has a bad day. So when I have those I get away with writing. Its helped me so much, I would’ve disposed of so many people, but I didn’t. Just I don’t know, I really wish that I could hide from it all, and just have a secret life. But I doesn’t work like that, people would’ve never thought that ME, would have suicidal tendencies, or anything like that. The only thing that would really stop me is that I don’t have the guts to do such a thing, but who said that it would be me…………….. I don’t know, just that I’m a really weird person, I couldn’t leave, but yet I could. Shit I just don’t know. Its like I have such a wonderful life *cough cough* well maybe I don’t, but still I do have people that love me, somewhere. Even if they don’t show it, maybe its just tough love. Who in the hell am I kidding?

Anyway, how was everyone’s weekend? Mine was alright I guess. Umm….I just completely forgot what I wanted to write. So I guess until next time.