LJ CUT ME OFF, THE BASTARDsoftlyforgottenDecember 22 2009, 14:23:53 UTC
Oh god and I am going on and on and ON, bear with me, I need to ramble some more at you yet: all the little details in this, I love the way you write so much, tiny little things like Spencer laughed at him, his tongue tucked between his teeth and His hair is grimy from salt water, I love so much this kind of writing, the way it doesn't ever descend into florid description but makes it so vivid and so clear in such a minimal, simple way. And along with that, the humour in this, Brendon accidentally turning into a creepy chronic masturbator and Zack doesn't mention that he's spent the better part of a half hour hitting himself on the arms. It's quite possibly the nicest thing Zack's ever done for him, all these little moments that made me laugh. This was such an intense, gritty fic in so many ways, and it was lovely to have those lighter moments, too, to really fix it in such a strong Brendon POV.
OKAY I AM ALMOST DONE I PROMISE but just, Brendon/Ryan, seriously. You've written them so well, and I spent so much of this thinking, this, THIS is why they're my OTP. Even setting aside the D/s relationship for a little while, there were so many aspects of the way they were together that made me get embarrassingly teary or invested or heart-eyesy at the screen, and there were bits in this that are some of my favourite things in Brendon/Ryan fic -- like them keeping it a secret from everyone, which does not get written enough, that mixture of the hot factor from hiding and being sort of out of bounds and the idea of it being their own, private world, wrapped up in each other, with these heart stopping moments, like: But Ryan kisses back, at least for a moment. "You taste like ocean," he whispers, before he slides off the cabinet. They're almost chest to chest. "We can't let them know.". When Brendon gives Ryan the collar, the He's always loved Ryan, but it's different like this, the two of them wrapped up in Ryan's ridiculously expensive sheets with his ties hanging around them like vines. "I'm in love with you.", Ryan saying yours for the first time.
I'm going to shut up now. Just, this was so much more than I had ever dared hope I would get, and I am so full up with happiness & love right now. Thank you very, very much, it means so much that you put in what feels like a great deal of thought & effort (all those 5am nights and plane flights, YOUUUU <333333) for me and this, and I love it to pieces.
OKAY I AM ALMOST DONE I PROMISE but just, Brendon/Ryan, seriously. You've written them so well, and I spent so much of this thinking, this, THIS is why they're my OTP. Even setting aside the D/s relationship for a little while, there were so many aspects of the way they were together that made me get embarrassingly teary or invested or heart-eyesy at the screen, and there were bits in this that are some of my favourite things in Brendon/Ryan fic -- like them keeping it a secret from everyone, which does not get written enough, that mixture of the hot factor from hiding and being sort of out of bounds and the idea of it being their own, private world, wrapped up in each other, with these heart stopping moments, like: But Ryan kisses back, at least for a moment. "You taste like ocean," he whispers, before he slides off the cabinet. They're almost chest to chest. "We can't let them know.". When Brendon gives Ryan the collar, the He's always loved Ryan, but it's different like this, the two of them wrapped up in Ryan's ridiculously expensive sheets with his ties hanging around them like vines. "I'm in love with you.", Ryan saying yours for the first time.
I'm going to shut up now. Just, this was so much more than I had ever dared hope I would get, and I am so full up with happiness & love right now. Thank you very, very much, it means so much that you put in what feels like a great deal of thought & effort (all those 5am nights and plane flights, YOUUUU <333333) for me and this, and I love it to pieces.
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*squish* I don't know what else to say about this, except that I keep reading it and it makes my face like :DDDDDDD
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