nothing but heartache and headache
"We'll carve our names
On a tree
Then we'll burn it down
So no one in the world will see"
This place is a horrible dream, a terrible fantasy.
It would hurt to stay, but it kills to leave.
What would it be like to come back?
I don't know. I'm not ready for this. I thought I was, but I don't want to let go. This place is an addiction. I don't know if it's really any good for me, but I want it more and more. I know I'm forgetting the nights I spent alone because no one wanted to hang out with me. And it's really better that I just remember the people here hugging me goodbye now instead of ignoring me later.
I don't know what else to say really. I am crushed, terribly so. I mean, what am I supposed to feel? Fucking ecstatic?
On Monday I'll go back to work and I'll be able to start forgetting. And then Kay will turn 21 and I'll be able to start drinking it away. And for a while I'll try to destroy myself, but if anyone knows how to survive it's me.
I don't want any arguments, I'm just saying, logistically, it'd all be easier if I were dead.
-Edehn
On a tree
Then we'll burn it down
So no one in the world will see"
This place is a horrible dream, a terrible fantasy.
It would hurt to stay, but it kills to leave.
What would it be like to come back?
I don't know. I'm not ready for this. I thought I was, but I don't want to let go. This place is an addiction. I don't know if it's really any good for me, but I want it more and more. I know I'm forgetting the nights I spent alone because no one wanted to hang out with me. And it's really better that I just remember the people here hugging me goodbye now instead of ignoring me later.
I don't know what else to say really. I am crushed, terribly so. I mean, what am I supposed to feel? Fucking ecstatic?
On Monday I'll go back to work and I'll be able to start forgetting. And then Kay will turn 21 and I'll be able to start drinking it away. And for a while I'll try to destroy myself, but if anyone knows how to survive it's me.
I don't want any arguments, I'm just saying, logistically, it'd all be easier if I were dead.
-Edehn