The downward spiral
If life had a Start Over button, I'd be set.
I've come to find that almost every word I speak, and almost every decision I carry out, has been replaced with regret. It's not that I don't think things through before I do them, because I do, but when something registers as not right, I just kind of override it and do it anyway. My habit of thinking consists of a 'do now, worry later' attitude, and it's come to harm me more than I'd expected.
I've just no energy for what I need to do; every small task seems enormous in my mind, when I know if I'd just get to work I could easily accomplish it.
I think it's more that I don't have the energy to live the life I want. I've grown so accustomed to letting things slide, that I'm letting what I want slip further and further away.
It's hard to think back to the person I used to be; I admire her. Now when I examine what I've become, I quickly think of something else to avoid feeling disappointed.
Whine, whine, whine, right? Why not just do something about it? Excellent suggestion, I've tried that many times. But habits are habits, and they form addictions, compulsions...excuses.
I've come to find that almost every word I speak, and almost every decision I carry out, has been replaced with regret. It's not that I don't think things through before I do them, because I do, but when something registers as not right, I just kind of override it and do it anyway. My habit of thinking consists of a 'do now, worry later' attitude, and it's come to harm me more than I'd expected.
I've just no energy for what I need to do; every small task seems enormous in my mind, when I know if I'd just get to work I could easily accomplish it.
I think it's more that I don't have the energy to live the life I want. I've grown so accustomed to letting things slide, that I'm letting what I want slip further and further away.
It's hard to think back to the person I used to be; I admire her. Now when I examine what I've become, I quickly think of something else to avoid feeling disappointed.
Whine, whine, whine, right? Why not just do something about it? Excellent suggestion, I've tried that many times. But habits are habits, and they form addictions, compulsions...excuses.