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as much as i miss my friends i realize how much my grandma needs me right now. i thought about how much it would suck to have the love of your life die, which you have known for like 60 years and then just be all alone waiting for your time to pass away. she dosent seem depressed right now but she is a strong person and hides it well. last night was the first night that she slept in thier bed since he died and i saw today that she had one of his favorite shirts put of a pillow so that she could cuddle with it. it was very sweet. proves that love is real. im gonna be here for 6 more weeks but what is she gonna do after i leave? just sit here all alone waiting for nothing? that just wouldnt be fair. this is a really nice house from world war 2 and has alot of really nice things in it. there have already been alot of people trying to break in back when my grandpa lived here and now that he is gone there is no way my grandma could defend herself from a burglar. there is no way i can leave her here by herself so until i find someone else to stay here then i must stay. im pretty sure it would pay off and my grandma would reward me with school or whatever it is that i decide to do. its really not that bad staying here anyways as long as i have aim. i just need a good hobby, which guitar is helping but i dont really know much guitar so alot of the times its just me messing around on it. anyways im really glad im here to help her out and i think billy would be very glad too.