one step forward... then step on my face.

[hidethesmoke]

the following LJ entry was written earlier today .. i was having a severe emo moment. i've since calmed down drastically, and decided

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[hidethesmoke]

dammit .
i tried to respond to this earlier but i guess it didnt go thru

i was looking for your phone number in the book but i coudlnt remember your last name ..

carnigie or some crap isnt it ?

[rock_is_dead]

Crazy madness.

Hit me up MSN style, if you ever want/need to chat.

[hidethesmoke]

thanks man .. i'll totally drop u a line
i'll be on msn more these days i think lol

<3

[guinness_lad]

i swear to hell im going to stomp that fuck!
your coming to mahones saturday!

[hidethesmoke]

well im down for london arms but u have to call me or get ahold of me
i have no idea how to track u down

<3

[eva_destruktion]

i'm sorry, Em.
there are no words that anyone can offer to wrap the wound and stop the bleeding, but know that i'm around if you wanna go grab a coffee, have a few smokes or a j, and talk.
we should do that one evening next week.
i may not be able to give you any advice, since really, there is no solid advice to offer other than what you're already telling yourself. that you WILL be ok, which is half the battle, realizing that things WILL work out in the end for you. so kudos to you for being a strong girl. but venting feels good; griping and talking about it.. and you know damn well i'll listen.
call me next week.
905.735.4357

i love you emmabunny <3
xo-

[hidethesmoke]

hey doll.. i called u back knowing full well u were working, but i was hoping i could get your machine and leave a message

thats really solid that you offered to do the coffee thing and whatnot ...

i work tomorrow 2 - 11 and then i dont work sunday ... as for the rest of the week i have a few days off here and there, and a lot of time to mope around and think lol . so. yeah.. i'd love to smoke a joint and talk, and ur right, i dont so much need advice, i mean, i already know what im going to do, and i've thought about this for long enuff im confident i know about as much as i possibly can know ... the rest . well, its up in the air for a reason . cuz hes dumb. lol. no.. i dunno.

either way i called with the hopes ur dad would pass on the message that i called.

xoxo. love you too darlin.

[xbuggx]

t burns me because i did so much for him and genuinely looked for NOTHING in return other then requited love and positivity. trust me that this will happen one day when its right....i never thought so but it has now....and im glad that what i said helped..after wards i felt bad because i thought maybe i was a jerk about it cos i was getting frustrated...you know i didnt mean it as anything but with love...and that day you never look back better have been yesterday

[xbuggx]

t burns me because i did so much for him and genuinely looked for NOTHING in return other then requited love and positivity. trust me that this will happen one day when its right....i never thought so but it has now....and im glad that what i said helped..after wards i felt bad because i thought maybe i was a jerk about it cos i was getting frustrated...you know i didnt mean it as anything but with love...and that day you never look back better have been yesterday