when are you bringin' your sweet love home to me ...
well i did it .. i survived the may 2-4 alive and well. thursday to monday of absolute madness .. the only part that super sucked (besides the monsoon downpour of rain i got ..) was monday afternoon at about 4:30pm ish .. i had to say goodbye to zach for the summer .
ugh . it was fucking heart wrenching .. we essentially live together now, i cant even remember the last time i slept alone ... so the thought of the next few months (an undetermined time from 3 to 4 months with out full accessibility to him) is a bit terrifying i wont lie. i did good tho ... i didnt cry at all infront of his parents, (his mom is fucking beautiful .. his dad seems ok too, quiet tho ..
anyway. i cried a bit when he hugged me goodbye, obviously. but les snapped me out of it pretty fast, it didnt hit me again how much i was going tom iss him until i was laying in bed trying to spoon with my big purple stuffed rabbit. lol. no go.
i checked my email on a whim and there was in there from zach with the Re:uncharacteristically sappy
i'll spare the privacy breech and not get into too many details of what was said, but, let me suffice to say that it was a heart felt indepth email acknowledging that this move away from home, and specifically from me was not going to be easy for him. but that he knew we could make it work, and that i was inside him now , the walls were broken down .. perhaps one of the most accomplished, rewarding feats i've ever underwent . i wouldnt change it for the world. i love him.
on a less heavy note, im totally going to have to upload some of these pictures from the cottage soon lol. i dont have them developed yet, but i DID successfully waste 2 x 27 exposures on those crappy 1 time use cameras .. im sure after weeding thru all the crap, the shit i was blinking in that one, or the OMG DO I LOOK LIKE THAT WHEN I SMILE? ones, there will be a few candid cute shots, or downright funny ones accompanied by my everso sarcastic wit to amuse and bedazzle all of you out there in LJ land...
so when you're near me, darling can't you hear me
s. o. s.
the love you gave me, nothing else can save me
s. o. s.
when you're gone
how can i even try to go on?
when you're gone
though i try how can i carry on?
s. o. s.
ugh . it was fucking heart wrenching .. we essentially live together now, i cant even remember the last time i slept alone ... so the thought of the next few months (an undetermined time from 3 to 4 months with out full accessibility to him) is a bit terrifying i wont lie. i did good tho ... i didnt cry at all infront of his parents, (his mom is fucking beautiful .. his dad seems ok too, quiet tho ..
anyway. i cried a bit when he hugged me goodbye, obviously. but les snapped me out of it pretty fast, it didnt hit me again how much i was going tom iss him until i was laying in bed trying to spoon with my big purple stuffed rabbit. lol. no go.
i checked my email on a whim and there was in there from zach with the Re:uncharacteristically sappy
i'll spare the privacy breech and not get into too many details of what was said, but, let me suffice to say that it was a heart felt indepth email acknowledging that this move away from home, and specifically from me was not going to be easy for him. but that he knew we could make it work, and that i was inside him now , the walls were broken down .. perhaps one of the most accomplished, rewarding feats i've ever underwent . i wouldnt change it for the world. i love him.
on a less heavy note, im totally going to have to upload some of these pictures from the cottage soon lol. i dont have them developed yet, but i DID successfully waste 2 x 27 exposures on those crappy 1 time use cameras .. im sure after weeding thru all the crap, the shit i was blinking in that one, or the OMG DO I LOOK LIKE THAT WHEN I SMILE? ones, there will be a few candid cute shots, or downright funny ones accompanied by my everso sarcastic wit to amuse and bedazzle all of you out there in LJ land...
so when you're near me, darling can't you hear me
s. o. s.
the love you gave me, nothing else can save me
s. o. s.
when you're gone
how can i even try to go on?
when you're gone
though i try how can i carry on?
s. o. s.