the road keeps on calling me

[hidemysuicide]

i havnt written in a while, a nd i thought i would have something to say, but i dont. im still sleepwalking through life, not really noticing much. getting angrier and angrier and taking it out on my boyfriend. thats not to say he doesnt always deserve it though. because there are certain things i need that he just is too stubborn to deliver on. oh well though.

im working on going to all my classes, i went to them monday and im going today so that makes me proud of myself. YAY! lol.

i need to de-stress, and i dont know what to do. i really want to try primal scream therapy, but i dont know how that would work, what with the whole, living in an appt, i dont want to put a pillow over my face, and if i go outside or to the academic side, theres a chance that people will hear me and call public safety or something.

is there any destressers that anyone could recommend?

keep in mind i've tried the following.

-baths
-massages
-meditation
-sex
-giving myself neck rubs
-sleeping
-dancing
-singing
-drawing
-listning to music
-knitting
-talking to people
-cutting
-kissing (not that thats an option because mike hates kissing now :sarcastic shrug:)
-screaming
-crying and getting it out

the only ones that ever worked were kissing (go figure) and cutting and i would rather not go through that again.

help?