Slacking
Therapy meme(tagged by Roshelle):
You are to write what you would like to say to 10 people what you've always wanted to say but would never say to their face. It's very therapeutic. No, I will not tell you if it's to you. That's how it works. ^^
Tagging: Whoever wants to do it.
1. What do you want from me? Why do you try to hold power over me when you know it only makes me fight against you more? We haven't gotten along for what...11 years? It's finally getting better, but don't push your luck by trying to demand me to contact you regularly for something I obviously need since you said I can't hold a job throughout the school year. Sometimes I wonder if not only my wretched body type comes from you, but also my anger. You will probably be the source of many problems in my life, and by trying to distance myself from you just a little I'm trying to make sure that my future isn't too traumatized. Or maybe I'm just not ready to be close to you again, if we ever were.
2. It's been four years since I last saw your face or heard your voice. Four years without your blog or drawings or emails. I wonder what you have become. Has whatever madness that ruled you in the last year of high school taken you over? I wouldn't be surprised. Is it bad if I would be kind of glad if you were dead now?
3. I rarely speak to you anymore and we might see each other once a year. How are you doing? I miss you, and I miss our childish games. You've grown really handsome. How is your art these days?
4. You'll probably never ever read this. After all, you don't have an LJ, and you don't even know much about the internet. Regardless, I love you. And I'm proud of you. I'm sorry I can't be there for your graduation.
5. I love you but goddamn sometimes I wonder if you've become too vain.
6. I never talk to you, but I have enough common sense to not unfriend you. I don't want to deal with the shit you'll rise about it.
7. I haven't known you long, compared to my other friends. But damn there have been times I want to slug you one. I hate how you can brag without realizing that you're bragging. I hate how you say we should do things together but then you do them without me. I can't stand it sometimes. But it's better now. But sometimes I still want to scratch your eyes out.
8. I want to see you. But I am so so scared. I believed in who you used to be, and I am afraid to face who you are now. I don't want the image I have of you to shatter, I don't want four+ years of admiration to be destroyed by the present. Please.
9. I envy you sometimes. You have skills and talents in areas I do not, areas where I wish I did three or four years ago. But I still love you.
10. Sometimes I wonder if I bother you too much. Even if I am only in your life physically for a brief amount of time, I wonder if I stress you out with my inadequacies. I don't mean to. I just know you can help me. I really do appreciate it. And I want to show you that somehow before I leave.
Well now I just feel damn depressed letting that all out. D= I don't feel better at all!
I was productive! *triumph* I found Takeshitadori (Under the Bamboo Street! woot! Where are all the pandas? D=)after walking around for um...an hour? Mari told me where to go. The punk/rock kids and gothic lolis were out in full glory - along with some band cosplayers! So I think I know where I should shop should I wish to ever look like a punk rock kid or a gothic lolita. I found the one shop with hide plushies and bought two (one is accidentally a double of one I have back home. I am not sure what to do with him yet) and some trading cards. I might have to go back there and to Shinjuku to pick up Toshi tapeness and suppossedly a Yoshiki barbie doll. =X
My blood is heated for more hide/X goods. But what do you do when you have such little time and little money and sadly little interest in collecting them?
So apparently Primadamu was ON this week but I was too dumb too know I was on the wrong channel or something. I like this show yet I have such a flippin hard time keeping up with! >___<
Gyarusa-(since I have been writing it with a Z which is wrong): I think Uriko aka chibi is one of my favorite gyaru. She's so spunky! And man a cactus that throws its spines at whoever lies in front of it. Only in a show about a cowboy in Shibuya! XD I still can't do the para para at the end - para para is hard! >___<
Right. Hw. heh. >_>;
You are to write what you would like to say to 10 people what you've always wanted to say but would never say to their face. It's very therapeutic. No, I will not tell you if it's to you. That's how it works. ^^
Tagging: Whoever wants to do it.
1. What do you want from me? Why do you try to hold power over me when you know it only makes me fight against you more? We haven't gotten along for what...11 years? It's finally getting better, but don't push your luck by trying to demand me to contact you regularly for something I obviously need since you said I can't hold a job throughout the school year. Sometimes I wonder if not only my wretched body type comes from you, but also my anger. You will probably be the source of many problems in my life, and by trying to distance myself from you just a little I'm trying to make sure that my future isn't too traumatized. Or maybe I'm just not ready to be close to you again, if we ever were.
2. It's been four years since I last saw your face or heard your voice. Four years without your blog or drawings or emails. I wonder what you have become. Has whatever madness that ruled you in the last year of high school taken you over? I wouldn't be surprised. Is it bad if I would be kind of glad if you were dead now?
3. I rarely speak to you anymore and we might see each other once a year. How are you doing? I miss you, and I miss our childish games. You've grown really handsome. How is your art these days?
4. You'll probably never ever read this. After all, you don't have an LJ, and you don't even know much about the internet. Regardless, I love you. And I'm proud of you. I'm sorry I can't be there for your graduation.
5. I love you but goddamn sometimes I wonder if you've become too vain.
6. I never talk to you, but I have enough common sense to not unfriend you. I don't want to deal with the shit you'll rise about it.
7. I haven't known you long, compared to my other friends. But damn there have been times I want to slug you one. I hate how you can brag without realizing that you're bragging. I hate how you say we should do things together but then you do them without me. I can't stand it sometimes. But it's better now. But sometimes I still want to scratch your eyes out.
8. I want to see you. But I am so so scared. I believed in who you used to be, and I am afraid to face who you are now. I don't want the image I have of you to shatter, I don't want four+ years of admiration to be destroyed by the present. Please.
9. I envy you sometimes. You have skills and talents in areas I do not, areas where I wish I did three or four years ago. But I still love you.
10. Sometimes I wonder if I bother you too much. Even if I am only in your life physically for a brief amount of time, I wonder if I stress you out with my inadequacies. I don't mean to. I just know you can help me. I really do appreciate it. And I want to show you that somehow before I leave.
Well now I just feel damn depressed letting that all out. D= I don't feel better at all!
I was productive! *triumph* I found Takeshitadori (Under the Bamboo Street! woot! Where are all the pandas? D=)after walking around for um...an hour? Mari told me where to go. The punk/rock kids and gothic lolis were out in full glory - along with some band cosplayers! So I think I know where I should shop should I wish to ever look like a punk rock kid or a gothic lolita. I found the one shop with hide plushies and bought two (one is accidentally a double of one I have back home. I am not sure what to do with him yet) and some trading cards. I might have to go back there and to Shinjuku to pick up Toshi tapeness and suppossedly a Yoshiki barbie doll. =X
My blood is heated for more hide/X goods. But what do you do when you have such little time and little money and sadly little interest in collecting them?
So apparently Primadamu was ON this week but I was too dumb too know I was on the wrong channel or something. I like this show yet I have such a flippin hard time keeping up with! >___<
Gyarusa-(since I have been writing it with a Z which is wrong): I think Uriko aka chibi is one of my favorite gyaru. She's so spunky! And man a cactus that throws its spines at whoever lies in front of it. Only in a show about a cowboy in Shibuya! XD I still can't do the para para at the end - para para is hard! >___<
Right. Hw. heh. >_>;