さようなら，けいすけくん。
When I have time tomorrow, I will write about my weekend. I did do hw - horray. And I did go to Keisuke's party. And I saw them all again one last time tonight. I...I felt like crying. I mean...Keisuke was never really close to me I think - we didn't do all that much together. But...I had a crush on him really bad. At least last year. And it was kinda...depressing to figure out he liked Roshelle who didn't like him. And being me I eventually forgot and gave up.
And then we run into each by accident this year. And those feelings come back. And tonight I had to say goodbye. And then he remembered to invite ME to his going away party...to me that said alot I guess.
Alot of my Japanese friends want me to go to Tokyo for study abroad. I don't think I'd mind if I got to see them - to have friends there would make it better.
But they all seem to forget that I don't even have the applications yet. That I haven't started working on them.
They all think I will surely be there but what if I'm not?
And he tells me "We will meet again in Tokyo."
I want to meet you again Keisuke. Even though I act nervous and shy around you, I still want to be your friend. I want to see Mei-chan and Noriko-san in Tokyo too! I want too so bad!
But why do I feel if I want it, I won't get it?
I felt like alot of people's expectations were riding on me tonight and that maybe hugging him goodbye one last time might be the last time I see him.
But then I need to go to bed anyway - horray for school. -__-;;
And then we run into each by accident this year. And those feelings come back. And tonight I had to say goodbye. And then he remembered to invite ME to his going away party...to me that said alot I guess.
Alot of my Japanese friends want me to go to Tokyo for study abroad. I don't think I'd mind if I got to see them - to have friends there would make it better.
But they all seem to forget that I don't even have the applications yet. That I haven't started working on them.
They all think I will surely be there but what if I'm not?
And he tells me "We will meet again in Tokyo."
I want to meet you again Keisuke. Even though I act nervous and shy around you, I still want to be your friend. I want to see Mei-chan and Noriko-san in Tokyo too! I want too so bad!
But why do I feel if I want it, I won't get it?
I felt like alot of people's expectations were riding on me tonight and that maybe hugging him goodbye one last time might be the last time I see him.
But then I need to go to bed anyway - horray for school. -__-;;