{Fanfic} My First and Last Goodbye (20)
[The day before the final preformance, about 1 week later]
~Haysu
My sixth sense was right, Junsu and Chaechun were ment to be! But these days, I haven't been seeing them together, and Chaechun hasn't been eating very well lately. I'm afraid that her body won't make it.
*ring**Ring**ring* rang the dorm phone.
“annyohaseyo!” I answered it while watching Star King.
“oh. Haysu?” said a voice
“Ah?? Jaejoong hyung?” I guessed
“Haysu.. is Chaechun around?” asked hyung
“yeh, just give me a second” “CHAECHUN YOUR BROTHERS ON THE PHONE LOOKING FOR YOU!!” I yelled.
“Annyo?” answered Chaechun
I cut the line off.
Haysu~
~Chaechun
“Hey.. how is my princess doing?” he asked
“ah.. pretty good?.. I guess” I replied
“You think you can over for dinner tonight? The guys miss you...”
“um.. sure..” I replied
“Ok! Then its a promise ok!” Jaejoong oppa said as he hanged up
*dingdongdingdong* I pressed on the doorbell as I arrived.
The door opened, and Junsu was standing in the door way. He seemed like he wanted something to say, but I didn't want to hear it. I walked past him, and was greeted by Yoochun and Yunho. Walking into the kitchen, I found my brother cooking dinner.
“Oppa!” I said as peeked from behind what he was cooking.
“hey kid!” he ruffled my hair.
“help me place the chicken into the plate, I'll be right back” he said leaving me with a saucer and a pan with chicken.
“Junsu! Help with the rice!” called Jaejoong.
Was he trying to get me to talk to him? I smiled, no chance of that.
Quickly I walked out of the kitchen with a plate of chicken, not a single sound made.
We all sat down into the kitchen, with a quiet atmostphere. Junsu was sitting directly across from me, Jaejoong at the front, Yunho beside me, Yoochun next to Junsu, and Changmin at the end eating anything that could be place into his mouth.
“um....” mumbled Jaejoong as he tried to break the silence. I didn't reply, I just starred at the food, not wanting to eat, and parcially holding back the tears.
“Chaechun” Junsu called out. I didn't look up.
“Chaechun” He called louder, everyone stopped their movements.
“yes” I forced a smile.
“I...” he stumbled for a moment. I bit the bottom of my lips, I didn't want to cry.
“Chaechun, I want to talk to you privately for a moment” he spat out
“Just tell me now, I'm sure you aren't suppose to keep secrets away from your members” I replied looking away. I just couldn't stand looking at him.
“Ok,” he breathed for a moment, “about the few insidents, I can explain-”
“explain?” I interupted him. “What do you need to explain? I saw everything with my eyes. Theres nothing more needed to be told” I said as hot liquid ran down my cheeks, I couldn't control them anymore
“No.. Chaechun” he said as he stood up
“No... don't call my name” I stood up, tears ran like rivers.
“Chaechun” he said again
“Don't...” I closed my eyes. “Before. When I saw you, my heart would be so happy, I felt like I was on cloud 9. But now, everytime I see you, I can't control my tears. They won't stop running. Why does everything I do involve you? It hurts to think of you, It hurts to remember you, It hurts to do anything. It hurts so much that every time I close my eyes, I'll see you. That when my phone rings, the wallpaper is you. That when I use my computer the wallpaper is you. I can't bring myself to change any of this, because this mark will be forever, and this feeling will be forever. Junsu, if your aren't going to tell me goodbye, then I will. Junsu,” I paused, the tears were slowly dripping one by one, like a coffee machine. “Junsu, this is my first and last goodbye” I breathed as I walked out the door.
“Chaechun!” he called out. Ah.. How it hurt so much.
I pulled my hood up and walked out of the apartment. Crossing the street in complete flashbacks. Junsu, How much I love you. But as I crossed, a flash of white light was shinning at me, I wonder what that was. I heard a honking sound. Then a voice.
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