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things 4 me have pretty much sucked, but i dont want 2 be pittied.....unless there's a bonus 4 me as well ;)!!! I am not really a social butterfly at school, but I have a couple of friends. Matt who is my magical fairy :), and Jacob who is more awesome than ony other person my age. Except 4 u Jackie of course ;)! I went 2 my therapist, and he keeps on pushing me with this whole medication thing. I am sorry, but I dont want 2 be doped up. I want 2 remember who I am thank u. Joseph told me he had a crush on me :/. I like him A LOT, just not like that. I dont really like any guys like that. i wish my friends would get the message that I don't want any other relationship w/ them other than friendship. NOTHING ELSE!!!! They'll learn eventually. I think it's just the whole me liking girls thing that makes them attracted 2 me. Last year they didnt act like this. Last year I was just one of the guys. I want it to be that way now, but all the ppl who only looked at me like a friend only r gone and in high school now, but ill manage. I feel insecure abt all the other girls at my school. Every time I even go around them or walk by them I hear whispers. Maybe it's just my paranoia, but this girl named Chelsey didnt wanna sit by her friend b/c I was sitting right next 2 them, and I heard her friend whisper something abt me, so I started whispering in Joseph's ear abt how they were whispering abt me, and they gave me the evilest look :D!!!! That was my favorite part of the day. That and Holly was hanging out w/ me a lot since she found out I was a lesbo. Somebody's got a secret ;)!!!
------- Stephanie
------- Stephanie