CSI (No Humans Involved), JoA (Dive), The OC (The SnO.C.)
The O.C. - The SnO.C.
- Yay to the Ryan/Lindsay. 'The boy loves to dance.' I love him with her. How disappointed and confused that she was apparently breaking up with him even though they hadn't gone out yet. How he finally decided he wasn't going to give up on her because he likes her and he thinks she could like him to. And the kiss. Strangely perfect. And then they ended up playing video games. No over the top angst. Just simple and sweet and very high school in all the good ways. And I'm for any girl that makes Ryan smile. The twist about her parentage? Not such a surprise. Bleh.
- I think Zach and just about everyone deserves a reward for restraint. If I had to be put in the company of Seth I wouldn't have been able to punch him just once, let alone apologize profusely for doing so after the fact. I don't get the comic book cutie thing from him at all. He's just so inane. I really don't get what Alex sees in him (and did I feel a vibe between Alex and Zach?), but their last scene was cute. And at least Seth improves in the company of Ryan. Heh to Ryan moving his position from Seth being over Summer, to thinking he might be, to knowing at least that Seth wants to be over her.
- Glad Zach decided to fight for Summer instead of just laying down and being stupidly jealous. I've liked Zach/Summer for the most part but in this episode I wasn't feeling it at all. And word to his onspot comment about S/S being a couple even when they aren't a couple.
- Not having a front row seat to the drama of Ryan/Marissa and Seth/Summer I found the foursome redux amusing. Esp. since by the end of the night that was shattered because they don't with each other right now at least. You know if Seth and Summer would stop being stupid with each other I could enjoy their interaction.
- Marissa and D.J. Does it look like I care? And oh no! Class differences. And he's not white! The hooorrrror! ::eyeroll:: But it was amusing to see Julie approving of Ryan because let's face it he looks like Prince Charming right now compared to the gardener. And we got some Julie/Jimmy out of it. 'Am I the gardener in this scenerio?' Which reminds me of a quote. Something like 'Am I the dog in this scenerio?' No idea where that's from. And Ryan/Marissa are less annoying as friends.
WaT Malone V. Malone
Whereas in CSI we just learned our what? 2nd factoid about Sara? WaT goes major character backstory on our ass with this episode. Seemed fitting it happened during the holidays.
- Daddy Malone says to Samantha he's always had a thing for blondes. So has Jack. Figures.
- Loved the Jack/Sam flashback. We learned about their affair after the fact, didn't we? I wasn't paying much attention in S1. Anyway, that way is just a good deal because there's no big focus but you get something and no worrying how it's going to ruin things later on. If only we'd have gotten a deal like that for Gris/Sara. I would certainly never say no to a flashback of them doing a crosspuzzle on a rainy day. 'What's more suprising is that if fits.' Still talking about the crosspuzzle, Jack?
- 'Honestly, I kind of feel responsible for what's going on with Jack.' The problem was obviously already there, but yeah you certainly didn't help matters. But you're not the one who made a life-long promise of committment. He did. Let him bear the brunt of it, Sam.
- Wow to the pure look of hatred on Jack's face when Maria came in unexpectedly at the deposition. Jack isn't my favorite person, but yeah I'm right there on the Maria hate train.
- The camcorder incident? I don't blame him with what he says on a daily basis but if he was more involved in his daughter's life he would have recognized who that was.
- Ah, the biggest reason why I *loathe* Maria. She brought up his depression and the 'history of mental illness in his family.' You know if that was actually something she was worried about then she wouldn't have gotten married to him, had kids with him, and stayed for as long as she did. That wasn't the factor and I can't even begin to tell you how much I detest her for using that personal information. I can only imagine what it felt like for him. If I was him having people trying to trap me into a corner like that using something so personal and painful I wouldn't have just thrown that chair into the glass walls. I would have jumped over the desk and throttled the life out of that bitch. But, well, I never did take criticism well =| 'We reap what we sow.' 'Sure do' ... bitch.
- Yay for backstory. I don't like Jack and how he's handled situations. If I was his wife I would have left him too but certainly not the way she did. But I felt like I was given so much in order to understand him better. And I just know we're never going to get that much insight into Grissom. Sometimes I'm jealous of WaT. I feel so bad that Jack had to go through what he did. Children should *never* have to deal with the weight of being the confidante. To have to carry the secrets. To be the ones worrying. And though she promised she'd never try again she did. And that damn laywer was making it seem like his mother abandoned him because she didn't care enough instead of the fact that she was sick! And now Jack can't care about anyone because they might leave and he has to protect himself. It's too scary. Damn it! Give me my Grissom backstory, bitch!
- Wow, what were you thinking Sam going up to Maria? I don't expect any wife who was cheated on to react any differently, but the fact that it's Maria doesn't even have me a little bit in her corner.
- I know Sam believes what she told Martin about being really, really happy thanks to him, but I don't. I think it's more content than happy. And it's more of the fact that a guy is just treating her *right* for once and not because she loves him. Things are going smoothly for them but that doesn't mean this is what she really wants or it's the best-case scenerio.
- And it's true! Everyone interested in psychology got that way because we're all fuck ups or are related to fuck ups. Prime example right here! =P
- "I couldn't care less about you." Ding ding ding! Thank you, Jack. Perfect. And yes he ultimately made the right decision to keep the girls with her. "They still need a father." Why does every part of me think that she's going to twist her girls into hating their father and making it seem like he gave up on them?
Joan of Arcadia. Dive.
- Judith!!! I didn't expect to see her again. And the look on Joan's face, knowing Judith isn't supposed to be there. And then they run off happily with the books falling behind them. Damn. This episode has me completely cemented on Joan/Judith. Death? Pfft. Details! Grace is good with Luke and I'm just so over Joan/Adam right now. Although, that little kiss in the hallway and Joan's you better meet me after school was cute. So yes, Joan/Judith.
- The highschool girls giggling after CuteBoy!God. Yup, that's us fangirls. And Joan? That's so you too no matter how much you deny it.
- God asks Joan do something that scares her. She replies that he scares her. Thus, being the logical machine that I am, I conclude Joan should do CBG. How was I not logical in my equation, I ask you?
- Helen. Shut up. I really can't stand her most of the time. She has this whole snotty, self-righteous thing going on. And now add in her religious experience and who the hell cares. I'm here for *Joan's* religious experience, not hers.
- Grace taking it out on Luke. Not unexpected at all. But really didn't expect Luke to take it heart. Courage? I think being involved with her involves a little courage because it's so easy for her to tear people apart.
- Heh to sibling rivalry. He's copying me! You're going down!
- Can we stop having Joan as spaz? It's so tiring. Why do we have so much female characters tripping all over themselves. Why is that supposed to be endearing? Why doesn't it have a limit?
- Yay for Joan in a swim suit. She looks normal! She has hips and some meat on her. "Before the water evaporates, Miss Girardi."
- "But the low board doesn't scare you. You didn't dream about the low board." "Don't mess with my dreams using Judith to get me into doing this." "If there was someone above you you've be in a lot of trouble."
- You know I don't esp. care for Lucy and her methods but Helen just hated her off the bat and she made no excuses for it. How old is she hating on someone stubbornly like that? But then as for pulling out Will - "I don't even like her and that seemed like a good call to me." Oh then it must have been if you think so! How about you be everyone's moral compass in Arcadia?
And then she won't even talk to her husband about her issues. Because oh no it's about religion and he doesn't believe in God. So she's upset but she won't talk to him about it and that's his fault? She just gets upset for the most idiotic reasons and then she deals with them in an even more idiotic manner.
"I'm scared of God, okay. I'm afraid of what he'll do next." I don't get it. If that's how you see God how can you believe in him, love him, obey him? I can go with knowing you're never going to understand why things are the way they are and struggling to trust that it all makes sense in the end, but fearing him? Then it's like following a dictator, no? It's not about trust or love. It's not about following even, it's about being too scared to do anything else.
- I did however like Helen's scene with Kevin. I know inwardly she was squeeing that he was talking about girls with her and that she was able to give him some insight into the female mind. That was cute. And guys. So simplistic. Either into a girl or not. Meanwhile we're killing ourselves with searching our heart, thinking about our life, and what our future with or without them would be like. And Kevin's getting a dull ache because of his feeling for Beth that only go away when he's with her. Awww! And Helen says something insightful about wounds that can be healed by the sword that inflicted the wound.
- Judith and CBG! Sigh. Now I'm imagining them up in Heaven hanging out *sniff* And they're both supporting Joan and just... *sniff* Just let go.
- Sibling bonding. How I've missed you. "Grace accused me of being a coward." "Grace rags on everybody." This episode should really hit me with the theme about dealing with fear but oddly it does not. The whole half a life thing is weird. He's what? 16. What exactly has he missed out on so much? How does he think it's over for him? Then he starts to cry and Joan joins him to exercise. I love how Joan kept supporting him. "Hey, I remember you in Ferrington and you were awesome."
- Lucy. Feelings. Will. Bleh. Big suprise for him.
- Grace. Well, this is progress for her even if she couldn't get all the words out. Telling him to forget the diving team, telling him she heeded his advice and talked to his mom, and finally she's there with Joan when he goes to dive.
- Sigh. And the last scene with Judith. Beautiful. She's in a white dress and she tells Joan not to let the fear hold her back. And she didn't die because she was fearless but because her problem was running from what she was afraid of. Don't do that. Just surrender. And she takes this magnificent dive and before she hits the water she scatters into flecks of gold. And the look on Joan's face. The shock, the sadness, tears. Sigh.
- "Mad?" "I yelled at her." "Well, she's very annoying." "I've been so alone because I knew how you felt. But even with that you heard me. I'm sorry I didn't trust you." I remember in the beginning I would see them together and see the connection and look to Joan and Adam and think that's what they're going to have. I don't see that at all anymore. And that look when Helen said she trusted him on Will's face. What the hell was that?
- Had doubts til end. Everyone does. Fear powerful. Has value. Never said you had to dive? Been all over me about this. What about the dreams? The dreams weren't about the high board. You know that.
- Joan's scene with Judith's headstone =( Not wanting to see the name and date but knowing she has. knowing she has to do this alone. Scared of going there beforehand because if she said goodbye it'd be admitting she would never see her again. Hurt so much to let go but she has to. Goodbye. I love you. And this is the cue for me to bawl because they love each other and god I don't even have to be wearing my slashy tinted glasses and I'm dying and it exceeds anything Joan/Adam is to me right now.
The song at the end was Million Tears by Kacey Chambers.
My hands are tied
My head is reelin'
My eyes have cried a million tears
From wishing you were here
CSI. No Humans Involved.
- Brass to Grissom: "I love this guy' (after telling him to collect the cam as evidence). It was just cute.
- The B Plot didn't interest me much at all except for Warrick's reaction to it. Sloppy police work, the officer referring to them as monkey at a zoo and wondering why they even bother stopping them from killing each other, etc. "A man is brain dead. Don't care what he was like when he was alive. If I find out you used excessive force then you won't have a jail." Go Warrick!
- Most of the time Sara and Grissom don't even seem to breathe the same air anymore. But I am loving her scenes with Doc, Brass, and Greg.
- How depressing was Sara's case? Very. Considering it was a child case I would think Gris would have been more involved and more emotional about it. But apparently not... Sofia is pretty distracting. Well, that does seem to be why TPTB put her there. "He starved to death, didn't he?" "Intestinal tract virutally empty... Muscles broken down for fuel. Think of it as body digesting itself. This took weeks. I have to admit this seems especially cruel and unusual." "When kids are involved it usually is." Also many people have mentioned how subdued Sara was in this case which is strange esp. considering her new shiny backstory to go along with her old. But I'm glad she's learning to deal. But she's very isolated at this point.
- Sara and Sofia. "Well, it's going to take you forever to go through these alone." "I'll get it done." "It took me a lot to get where I am, Sara. Now I feel like I'm starting from scratch. I miss sleeping at night, miss my collegaues, miss being trusted." It's not that I think Sofia is up to no good exactly, but she was Ecklie's right hand and what does that say? And trust is earned. Besides she already seems to be on just fine terms with Gris and Greg.
- Are we going to keep with the Warrick/Mia? Although, it was more amusing this time. Accusing him of being a playa and who is beeping him but Greg. Because last night was rough and Warrick called to check up on him. Yeah, that's not slashy at all. "Anything else you want to say to me?" "Have a nice day." "That's it?" "That's it." And then Sofia interrupts, he leaves, and Mia and Sofia drool over how hot he is. I think I'm falling all over these polygons. Greg - Mia - Warrick - Sofia - Grissom - Sara - Greg and so forth.
- Hodges. Competitor for biggest slimeball. "Plus, CSIs get shot all the time or didn't they tell you?" Why is he giving Greg such a hard time? Oh yes. I forgot to add him onto the polygon. But honestly it's so repressed sexual desire for Greg that's causing the bitchiness. And you know Hodges as dangerous as the field can be so can the lab on occassion. Lab go boom remember? "Sooner or later you're going to be having to go back to the hood. Nervous?"
- Sara and the foster kids. "You like chemistry?" "Oh no. I'm not smart enough." "Sure you are. Glynnis, right? Quantum theory. That's compelling stuff, actually." "Look, you can question me fine. You don't have to pretend to be interested in me." "I guess I was just trying to put you at ease. I know what's it's like living with strangers. Fate being decided by social workers, advocates, judges." "You were in the system." "For awhile." ... "Remember little boy named Devon?" "Yeah. Why all the questions? Something happen?" "Yeah." "Is he dead?" "Yeah." "I don't understand. His mom came in and picked him up. That never happens. You could see how much she loved those boys." "Glynnis, did Devon have brothers at foster home?" "Yeah, 2 older brothers, Kevin and Raymond. What happened to them?"
Okay, I was spoiled for this tidbit. Had a whole day to let it sink in. I wonder what my reaction would have been otherwise. It feels so tacked on to me. A foster home? It doesn't jibe with what we know of Sara. But hey it's screentime for her so I'll go for it and it's time that's not connected to Grissom.
And now since she's mentioned quantum theory I'm thinking of her and Samuel Beckett. God, he's such my tv boyfriend. He's cute, he's smart, he has great moral fiber, he's compassionate, and he's still human. Sigh. I really need to stop watching the re-runs don't I?
- "Smashing a brick into abusive boyfriend's face." "Sounds like self-defensive to me.."So her mom did something to her bf/husband that landed her in jail and Sara in a foster home? Or Sara saw abuse while in the system. Hmmm. I think the theory I like best is by cincoflex who guessed Sara was placed in the system because of a marijuana bust at her parent's place which actually jibes more with her old backstory than anything else.
- "Despite her taste in men, she was good mother." "One kid dead, two missing. What's good about that?"
- I'm trying to remain open about Cath as supervisor, but her new brand of interaction with Warick was a serious jolt. No way things are going to work out between them. You know if I wanted "But you're my supervisor" tension/angst I unfortunately have Gris/Sara. And her attempt to separate her approach to Grissom's? Saying she's not going to let things slide that Grissom did? Really hard for me not to snort at that.
- Divine: "You got a car because you don't look like you have a car to me?" Sara goes for the hair. "Hey watch it, bitch." Sara: "It's a wig. Hairs consistent. Open your mouth please." Brass :"Come on honey. You can do that in your sleep. Open up." Hee.
- So apparently Gris can be flirty and attentive to everyone except Sara now. Gris checks up on Cath. Fetal pig as office warming gift. 'One week and she's already paranoid.' Hey, she's supposedly little Miss Politics and Miss People Person. We shall see. 'His right *and* left hand?' Was she that useful? 'She had always know he'd be the one getting dirty if it hit the fan.' And he always had your back. What will you be like as supervisor? When he can't protect you and you have to protect others? 'Ever play politics?' 'Ran for president in science club in junion high. Lost by one vote. Didn't vote for himself. Not good at politics and it cost him. Your loss is my gain.' Huh? But I thought swing shift had even suckier hours. How is this her gain? "And at least they're in good hands." *snort* No, no. I want to see this. I want to see the trust Grissom puts in people and how that pans out for him. Wow, I feel so jaded.
- Divine: We been sitting here for a long time. Brass: What can I say? I like your company. Sara: DNAs a match. One of the hairs left on little boy. Wonder why they would leave one kid with you, let alone three. Divine: My cousin left me with those bad ass kids and no money. Sara: Looks like you haven't missed many meals. Divine: You know what, skinny bitch? Go to hell. I just scrap by. I did the best I could. Brass: Where are the kids now? Divine: Nuh uh. Not going to blame this on me. Brass: If those boys die I'll make it my business to see you get the death penalty.
Skinny bitch? Ha! Hilarious. Yeah, JF does look skinner than she has been in a while.
- I loved Sara backing Brass up with her gun as they went downstairs to check the place out. And when she finds the boys alive. The look on her face and that little boy... Sigh. Though the potential foster care situation may explain her previous inability to be good with children. You know seeing how other people screw up with their kids she just feels she'd end up doing the same and tries to remain detached.
- Brass contemplates where to take mother first. To dead son at morgue or to her hospitalized kids. Sara: Go with the living, Jim. The dead can wait.
Very poignant. Did I mention I love their interaction? Forget Gris/Sara. I'm enjoying this much more actually. It's just nice seeing Sara working at a equal level with him, backing him up, calling him Jim. He was there for her when he suspected something was up with her drinking and I can see him noticing what's going on with her again and being a friend. And this time him being the one to mention to Gris to take his head out of his ass.
- Sara alone, looking something up. Looks to her left: Gris and Sofia laughing it up over a book. Oddly, Sara doesn't seem resigned. She's too matter-of-fact about it to be resigned but too resigned to be matter-of-fact, you know? I'm glad for that. Because it's not about Grissom and his short-sightedness. And screw him anyway. It's about working through her own things. Sara looks to her right: Nick, Warrick, and Greg hanging out. "The ppl vs Laura Sidle w/c Modesto, California, 1984." In-ter-esting...
And the cut out portion of the scene with Sara and Glynnis:
Glyniss: You were in the system.
Sara: For a short time.
Glyniss: I'm sorry for your loss.
Sara stiffens.
SARA: (sharp) What do you mean by that?
Glyniss: Something bad happened to your family. Mrs. Tenney calls our experiences losses. Says we have to grieve. I didn't mean anything by it.
Sara: It's not your fault. I guess I'm still sensitive.
- Yay to the Ryan/Lindsay. 'The boy loves to dance.' I love him with her. How disappointed and confused that she was apparently breaking up with him even though they hadn't gone out yet. How he finally decided he wasn't going to give up on her because he likes her and he thinks she could like him to. And the kiss. Strangely perfect. And then they ended up playing video games. No over the top angst. Just simple and sweet and very high school in all the good ways. And I'm for any girl that makes Ryan smile. The twist about her parentage? Not such a surprise. Bleh.
- I think Zach and just about everyone deserves a reward for restraint. If I had to be put in the company of Seth I wouldn't have been able to punch him just once, let alone apologize profusely for doing so after the fact. I don't get the comic book cutie thing from him at all. He's just so inane. I really don't get what Alex sees in him (and did I feel a vibe between Alex and Zach?), but their last scene was cute. And at least Seth improves in the company of Ryan. Heh to Ryan moving his position from Seth being over Summer, to thinking he might be, to knowing at least that Seth wants to be over her.
- Glad Zach decided to fight for Summer instead of just laying down and being stupidly jealous. I've liked Zach/Summer for the most part but in this episode I wasn't feeling it at all. And word to his onspot comment about S/S being a couple even when they aren't a couple.
- Not having a front row seat to the drama of Ryan/Marissa and Seth/Summer I found the foursome redux amusing. Esp. since by the end of the night that was shattered because they don't with each other right now at least. You know if Seth and Summer would stop being stupid with each other I could enjoy their interaction.
- Marissa and D.J. Does it look like I care? And oh no! Class differences. And he's not white! The hooorrrror! ::eyeroll:: But it was amusing to see Julie approving of Ryan because let's face it he looks like Prince Charming right now compared to the gardener. And we got some Julie/Jimmy out of it. 'Am I the gardener in this scenerio?' Which reminds me of a quote. Something like 'Am I the dog in this scenerio?' No idea where that's from. And Ryan/Marissa are less annoying as friends.
WaT Malone V. Malone
Whereas in CSI we just learned our what? 2nd factoid about Sara? WaT goes major character backstory on our ass with this episode. Seemed fitting it happened during the holidays.
- Daddy Malone says to Samantha he's always had a thing for blondes. So has Jack. Figures.
- Loved the Jack/Sam flashback. We learned about their affair after the fact, didn't we? I wasn't paying much attention in S1. Anyway, that way is just a good deal because there's no big focus but you get something and no worrying how it's going to ruin things later on. If only we'd have gotten a deal like that for Gris/Sara. I would certainly never say no to a flashback of them doing a crosspuzzle on a rainy day. 'What's more suprising is that if fits.' Still talking about the crosspuzzle, Jack?
- 'Honestly, I kind of feel responsible for what's going on with Jack.' The problem was obviously already there, but yeah you certainly didn't help matters. But you're not the one who made a life-long promise of committment. He did. Let him bear the brunt of it, Sam.
- Wow to the pure look of hatred on Jack's face when Maria came in unexpectedly at the deposition. Jack isn't my favorite person, but yeah I'm right there on the Maria hate train.
- The camcorder incident? I don't blame him with what he says on a daily basis but if he was more involved in his daughter's life he would have recognized who that was.
- Ah, the biggest reason why I *loathe* Maria. She brought up his depression and the 'history of mental illness in his family.' You know if that was actually something she was worried about then she wouldn't have gotten married to him, had kids with him, and stayed for as long as she did. That wasn't the factor and I can't even begin to tell you how much I detest her for using that personal information. I can only imagine what it felt like for him. If I was him having people trying to trap me into a corner like that using something so personal and painful I wouldn't have just thrown that chair into the glass walls. I would have jumped over the desk and throttled the life out of that bitch. But, well, I never did take criticism well =| 'We reap what we sow.' 'Sure do' ... bitch.
- Yay for backstory. I don't like Jack and how he's handled situations. If I was his wife I would have left him too but certainly not the way she did. But I felt like I was given so much in order to understand him better. And I just know we're never going to get that much insight into Grissom. Sometimes I'm jealous of WaT. I feel so bad that Jack had to go through what he did. Children should *never* have to deal with the weight of being the confidante. To have to carry the secrets. To be the ones worrying. And though she promised she'd never try again she did. And that damn laywer was making it seem like his mother abandoned him because she didn't care enough instead of the fact that she was sick! And now Jack can't care about anyone because they might leave and he has to protect himself. It's too scary. Damn it! Give me my Grissom backstory, bitch!
- Wow, what were you thinking Sam going up to Maria? I don't expect any wife who was cheated on to react any differently, but the fact that it's Maria doesn't even have me a little bit in her corner.
- I know Sam believes what she told Martin about being really, really happy thanks to him, but I don't. I think it's more content than happy. And it's more of the fact that a guy is just treating her *right* for once and not because she loves him. Things are going smoothly for them but that doesn't mean this is what she really wants or it's the best-case scenerio.
- And it's true! Everyone interested in psychology got that way because we're all fuck ups or are related to fuck ups. Prime example right here! =P
- "I couldn't care less about you." Ding ding ding! Thank you, Jack. Perfect. And yes he ultimately made the right decision to keep the girls with her. "They still need a father." Why does every part of me think that she's going to twist her girls into hating their father and making it seem like he gave up on them?
Joan of Arcadia. Dive.
- Judith!!! I didn't expect to see her again. And the look on Joan's face, knowing Judith isn't supposed to be there. And then they run off happily with the books falling behind them. Damn. This episode has me completely cemented on Joan/Judith. Death? Pfft. Details! Grace is good with Luke and I'm just so over Joan/Adam right now. Although, that little kiss in the hallway and Joan's you better meet me after school was cute. So yes, Joan/Judith.
- The highschool girls giggling after CuteBoy!God. Yup, that's us fangirls. And Joan? That's so you too no matter how much you deny it.
- God asks Joan do something that scares her. She replies that he scares her. Thus, being the logical machine that I am, I conclude Joan should do CBG. How was I not logical in my equation, I ask you?
- Helen. Shut up. I really can't stand her most of the time. She has this whole snotty, self-righteous thing going on. And now add in her religious experience and who the hell cares. I'm here for *Joan's* religious experience, not hers.
- Grace taking it out on Luke. Not unexpected at all. But really didn't expect Luke to take it heart. Courage? I think being involved with her involves a little courage because it's so easy for her to tear people apart.
- Heh to sibling rivalry. He's copying me! You're going down!
- Can we stop having Joan as spaz? It's so tiring. Why do we have so much female characters tripping all over themselves. Why is that supposed to be endearing? Why doesn't it have a limit?
- Yay for Joan in a swim suit. She looks normal! She has hips and some meat on her. "Before the water evaporates, Miss Girardi."
- "But the low board doesn't scare you. You didn't dream about the low board." "Don't mess with my dreams using Judith to get me into doing this." "If there was someone above you you've be in a lot of trouble."
- You know I don't esp. care for Lucy and her methods but Helen just hated her off the bat and she made no excuses for it. How old is she hating on someone stubbornly like that? But then as for pulling out Will - "I don't even like her and that seemed like a good call to me." Oh then it must have been if you think so! How about you be everyone's moral compass in Arcadia?
And then she won't even talk to her husband about her issues. Because oh no it's about religion and he doesn't believe in God. So she's upset but she won't talk to him about it and that's his fault? She just gets upset for the most idiotic reasons and then she deals with them in an even more idiotic manner.
"I'm scared of God, okay. I'm afraid of what he'll do next." I don't get it. If that's how you see God how can you believe in him, love him, obey him? I can go with knowing you're never going to understand why things are the way they are and struggling to trust that it all makes sense in the end, but fearing him? Then it's like following a dictator, no? It's not about trust or love. It's not about following even, it's about being too scared to do anything else.
- I did however like Helen's scene with Kevin. I know inwardly she was squeeing that he was talking about girls with her and that she was able to give him some insight into the female mind. That was cute. And guys. So simplistic. Either into a girl or not. Meanwhile we're killing ourselves with searching our heart, thinking about our life, and what our future with or without them would be like. And Kevin's getting a dull ache because of his feeling for Beth that only go away when he's with her. Awww! And Helen says something insightful about wounds that can be healed by the sword that inflicted the wound.
- Judith and CBG! Sigh. Now I'm imagining them up in Heaven hanging out *sniff* And they're both supporting Joan and just... *sniff* Just let go.
- Sibling bonding. How I've missed you. "Grace accused me of being a coward." "Grace rags on everybody." This episode should really hit me with the theme about dealing with fear but oddly it does not. The whole half a life thing is weird. He's what? 16. What exactly has he missed out on so much? How does he think it's over for him? Then he starts to cry and Joan joins him to exercise. I love how Joan kept supporting him. "Hey, I remember you in Ferrington and you were awesome."
- Lucy. Feelings. Will. Bleh. Big suprise for him.
- Grace. Well, this is progress for her even if she couldn't get all the words out. Telling him to forget the diving team, telling him she heeded his advice and talked to his mom, and finally she's there with Joan when he goes to dive.
- Sigh. And the last scene with Judith. Beautiful. She's in a white dress and she tells Joan not to let the fear hold her back. And she didn't die because she was fearless but because her problem was running from what she was afraid of. Don't do that. Just surrender. And she takes this magnificent dive and before she hits the water she scatters into flecks of gold. And the look on Joan's face. The shock, the sadness, tears. Sigh.
- "Mad?" "I yelled at her." "Well, she's very annoying." "I've been so alone because I knew how you felt. But even with that you heard me. I'm sorry I didn't trust you." I remember in the beginning I would see them together and see the connection and look to Joan and Adam and think that's what they're going to have. I don't see that at all anymore. And that look when Helen said she trusted him on Will's face. What the hell was that?
- Had doubts til end. Everyone does. Fear powerful. Has value. Never said you had to dive? Been all over me about this. What about the dreams? The dreams weren't about the high board. You know that.
- Joan's scene with Judith's headstone =( Not wanting to see the name and date but knowing she has. knowing she has to do this alone. Scared of going there beforehand because if she said goodbye it'd be admitting she would never see her again. Hurt so much to let go but she has to. Goodbye. I love you. And this is the cue for me to bawl because they love each other and god I don't even have to be wearing my slashy tinted glasses and I'm dying and it exceeds anything Joan/Adam is to me right now.
The song at the end was Million Tears by Kacey Chambers.
My hands are tied
My head is reelin'
My eyes have cried a million tears
From wishing you were here
CSI. No Humans Involved.
- Brass to Grissom: "I love this guy' (after telling him to collect the cam as evidence). It was just cute.
- The B Plot didn't interest me much at all except for Warrick's reaction to it. Sloppy police work, the officer referring to them as monkey at a zoo and wondering why they even bother stopping them from killing each other, etc. "A man is brain dead. Don't care what he was like when he was alive. If I find out you used excessive force then you won't have a jail." Go Warrick!
- Most of the time Sara and Grissom don't even seem to breathe the same air anymore. But I am loving her scenes with Doc, Brass, and Greg.
- How depressing was Sara's case? Very. Considering it was a child case I would think Gris would have been more involved and more emotional about it. But apparently not... Sofia is pretty distracting. Well, that does seem to be why TPTB put her there. "He starved to death, didn't he?" "Intestinal tract virutally empty... Muscles broken down for fuel. Think of it as body digesting itself. This took weeks. I have to admit this seems especially cruel and unusual." "When kids are involved it usually is." Also many people have mentioned how subdued Sara was in this case which is strange esp. considering her new shiny backstory to go along with her old. But I'm glad she's learning to deal. But she's very isolated at this point.
- Sara and Sofia. "Well, it's going to take you forever to go through these alone." "I'll get it done." "It took me a lot to get where I am, Sara. Now I feel like I'm starting from scratch. I miss sleeping at night, miss my collegaues, miss being trusted." It's not that I think Sofia is up to no good exactly, but she was Ecklie's right hand and what does that say? And trust is earned. Besides she already seems to be on just fine terms with Gris and Greg.
- Are we going to keep with the Warrick/Mia? Although, it was more amusing this time. Accusing him of being a playa and who is beeping him but Greg. Because last night was rough and Warrick called to check up on him. Yeah, that's not slashy at all. "Anything else you want to say to me?" "Have a nice day." "That's it?" "That's it." And then Sofia interrupts, he leaves, and Mia and Sofia drool over how hot he is. I think I'm falling all over these polygons. Greg - Mia - Warrick - Sofia - Grissom - Sara - Greg and so forth.
- Hodges. Competitor for biggest slimeball. "Plus, CSIs get shot all the time or didn't they tell you?" Why is he giving Greg such a hard time? Oh yes. I forgot to add him onto the polygon. But honestly it's so repressed sexual desire for Greg that's causing the bitchiness. And you know Hodges as dangerous as the field can be so can the lab on occassion. Lab go boom remember? "Sooner or later you're going to be having to go back to the hood. Nervous?"
- Sara and the foster kids. "You like chemistry?" "Oh no. I'm not smart enough." "Sure you are. Glynnis, right? Quantum theory. That's compelling stuff, actually." "Look, you can question me fine. You don't have to pretend to be interested in me." "I guess I was just trying to put you at ease. I know what's it's like living with strangers. Fate being decided by social workers, advocates, judges." "You were in the system." "For awhile." ... "Remember little boy named Devon?" "Yeah. Why all the questions? Something happen?" "Yeah." "Is he dead?" "Yeah." "I don't understand. His mom came in and picked him up. That never happens. You could see how much she loved those boys." "Glynnis, did Devon have brothers at foster home?" "Yeah, 2 older brothers, Kevin and Raymond. What happened to them?"
Okay, I was spoiled for this tidbit. Had a whole day to let it sink in. I wonder what my reaction would have been otherwise. It feels so tacked on to me. A foster home? It doesn't jibe with what we know of Sara. But hey it's screentime for her so I'll go for it and it's time that's not connected to Grissom.
And now since she's mentioned quantum theory I'm thinking of her and Samuel Beckett. God, he's such my tv boyfriend. He's cute, he's smart, he has great moral fiber, he's compassionate, and he's still human. Sigh. I really need to stop watching the re-runs don't I?
- "Smashing a brick into abusive boyfriend's face." "Sounds like self-defensive to me.."So her mom did something to her bf/husband that landed her in jail and Sara in a foster home? Or Sara saw abuse while in the system. Hmmm. I think the theory I like best is by cincoflex who guessed Sara was placed in the system because of a marijuana bust at her parent's place which actually jibes more with her old backstory than anything else.
- "Despite her taste in men, she was good mother." "One kid dead, two missing. What's good about that?"
- I'm trying to remain open about Cath as supervisor, but her new brand of interaction with Warick was a serious jolt. No way things are going to work out between them. You know if I wanted "But you're my supervisor" tension/angst I unfortunately have Gris/Sara. And her attempt to separate her approach to Grissom's? Saying she's not going to let things slide that Grissom did? Really hard for me not to snort at that.
- Divine: "You got a car because you don't look like you have a car to me?" Sara goes for the hair. "Hey watch it, bitch." Sara: "It's a wig. Hairs consistent. Open your mouth please." Brass :"Come on honey. You can do that in your sleep. Open up." Hee.
- So apparently Gris can be flirty and attentive to everyone except Sara now. Gris checks up on Cath. Fetal pig as office warming gift. 'One week and she's already paranoid.' Hey, she's supposedly little Miss Politics and Miss People Person. We shall see. 'His right *and* left hand?' Was she that useful? 'She had always know he'd be the one getting dirty if it hit the fan.' And he always had your back. What will you be like as supervisor? When he can't protect you and you have to protect others? 'Ever play politics?' 'Ran for president in science club in junion high. Lost by one vote. Didn't vote for himself. Not good at politics and it cost him. Your loss is my gain.' Huh? But I thought swing shift had even suckier hours. How is this her gain? "And at least they're in good hands." *snort* No, no. I want to see this. I want to see the trust Grissom puts in people and how that pans out for him. Wow, I feel so jaded.
- Divine: We been sitting here for a long time. Brass: What can I say? I like your company. Sara: DNAs a match. One of the hairs left on little boy. Wonder why they would leave one kid with you, let alone three. Divine: My cousin left me with those bad ass kids and no money. Sara: Looks like you haven't missed many meals. Divine: You know what, skinny bitch? Go to hell. I just scrap by. I did the best I could. Brass: Where are the kids now? Divine: Nuh uh. Not going to blame this on me. Brass: If those boys die I'll make it my business to see you get the death penalty.
Skinny bitch? Ha! Hilarious. Yeah, JF does look skinner than she has been in a while.
- I loved Sara backing Brass up with her gun as they went downstairs to check the place out. And when she finds the boys alive. The look on her face and that little boy... Sigh. Though the potential foster care situation may explain her previous inability to be good with children. You know seeing how other people screw up with their kids she just feels she'd end up doing the same and tries to remain detached.
- Brass contemplates where to take mother first. To dead son at morgue or to her hospitalized kids. Sara: Go with the living, Jim. The dead can wait.
Very poignant. Did I mention I love their interaction? Forget Gris/Sara. I'm enjoying this much more actually. It's just nice seeing Sara working at a equal level with him, backing him up, calling him Jim. He was there for her when he suspected something was up with her drinking and I can see him noticing what's going on with her again and being a friend. And this time him being the one to mention to Gris to take his head out of his ass.
- Sara alone, looking something up. Looks to her left: Gris and Sofia laughing it up over a book. Oddly, Sara doesn't seem resigned. She's too matter-of-fact about it to be resigned but too resigned to be matter-of-fact, you know? I'm glad for that. Because it's not about Grissom and his short-sightedness. And screw him anyway. It's about working through her own things. Sara looks to her right: Nick, Warrick, and Greg hanging out. "The ppl vs Laura Sidle w/c Modesto, California, 1984." In-ter-esting...
And the cut out portion of the scene with Sara and Glynnis:
Glyniss: You were in the system.
Sara: For a short time.
Glyniss: I'm sorry for your loss.
Sara stiffens.
SARA: (sharp) What do you mean by that?
Glyniss: Something bad happened to your family. Mrs. Tenney calls our experiences losses. Says we have to grieve. I didn't mean anything by it.
Sara: It's not your fault. I guess I'm still sensitive.