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[hiddenspedi]

I uh think I figured out partly why I'm so unhappy. I reading about symbols and communication today. In it there was a mention of Freud and one of his theories. I found it interesting it was about the Id, Ego, and Superego. I feel I'm superego dominated. The superego decides direction, guilt, conscience, and focus. A lot of times I feel a direction, but I feel like regret and guilt about every decision I've made in my life. If I could live it over I would every moment, of course I'd probably screw it up and make the same choices because I'm an idiot. The id decides drive, impulses, and energy. Now the ego is supposed to keep balance between the id and superego. I believe mine is broken. So I look, I think to women or friends who are id dominated to balance me out. This naturally causes me more misery as id dominated people flit from thing to thing, which includes people. So I get hurt from trying to balance myself. Sweet way to be a libra idiot. I'll see if I can rectify that somehow.

I'm home in a week and super excited.