"back to school..back to school..prove to dad im not a fool"

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so today was my first day of school at notre dame prep. it wasnt fun. i wasnt excited like everybody else. im just so different from all the girls there. its not just the way i dress or my music or whatever. i act so different then all of them. im never gonna be ms school spirit. im never gonna be sporty..and im not overly optimistic. now dont get me wrong im not a lazy ass pessimist. but this school isnt for me. im not gonna say it sucks or anything...bc it seems to be perfect for perfect girls..but im imperfect beyond reason. and i like it that way. i have made a few "friends" but i dont wanna form friendships too quickly....i have this trust issue thing going on with girls. i dont trust girls at all. i dont know what im gonna do..i really dont think i can do a whole year at this school. i dont want everybody thinking i can handle the school cause the education and its realy strict. i can handle whatevers given to me. trust me. i just dont know how long i can take this. this was only my first day and already i just wanna get out. i dont wanna go back tomorrow. i dont wanna. i dont wanna. i really dont wanna....




^^me..stressed out over school...


^^my kickass shoes