College.
I'm being forced to "write a letter" to a college that I want to accept me for computer class, and it's freaking me out. By doing this, and looking for a college that I might be interested in, I realize that I know absolutely nothing about looking for the right college; that I haven't done really aything in school in order to prepare for college (i.e. extracurricular activities, etc) and chances are...I'm not going to get in anywhere worth my time and money. I want to go somewhere in the field of astronomy or biology..but exactly WHERE in either of those fields? I have no idea. I'm like sick to my stomach thinking about this right now. I think after school today...RIGHT after school..im going to go and find the teacher who organized the science club and im going to join. I really need to get my ass moving, because I've done good so far in getting my grades up since last year...but that's it. Im not doing any extracurricular activities for the school like I planned on doing this year. I was going to do swimming, and I ended up getting a peircing instead which doesn't permit me to go into chlorinated water...so thats out. I was going to do the college bowl, which im sure Mr. Fam would still let me do, but i feel like a dufus going in so late. And i was going to join the literary club, but to be honest it sounds like kind of a joke. I wish more of my friends were really INTO doing stuff like that so maybe i'd be a little braver and more motivated to do so. But they arent. I know its really up to me, but..I'd just feel more comfortable if I knew someone who was there with me to do this kind of thing. Am I a nerd?