It's official.
I haven't been writing in for the longest time ever. I think cause the moment I see my own Lj, it just looks so solemn and depressing. With all the stupid different shades of grey, no wonder I'm called plain jane. Hey, I just like things simple with no frills. (But that's besides the point.)
I think I need to revamp the whole site or just simply shift everything. Wouldn't it be great if I'm friends with someone who can just do up everything for me? Yeah yeah, dream on I know.
Life's been okay. It's like a cycle, y'know? Sometimes you're up, but when it comes to being at the lowest point in your life, the moments seem to last forever. I always have this theory, let's call it the Nadia's Theory. It's like when one laughs or be happy too much, before you know it, you cry your sockets out the next seconds. Happens to me all the time. I know that sometimes people say, if you choose to believe in it, it WILL happen. It's not that I choose to believe in it, cause life would just be plain miserable for me. It's just that I think life have this delicate balance in almost everything. You win some, you're bound to lose some to make up for it.
Internship. Wow. I'm so tired of doing rooms, y'know. I don't know when the hell I'm gonna learn new things. I am happy working there, don't be mistaken. It's just that I feel I know the morale or challenges whatsoever that needed to be learnt in doing rooms. I've been doing it for like 3 months already, for god sake. i wanna learn new things! Haha. It's just that there always seem to be lacking of people, and oh well, being trainees, they make sure they work your ass off since you're at their mercy. I can't wait for next month's schedule to be out. If I'm still doing rooms, my oh my, I'm so talking to the manager. Roar.
Family. I am grateful. Sometimes that it. Not all families are perfect. Sometimes you wish that one by one they would be just different from reality. But on some days, you sit back and think to yourself, that you should be grateful. Now, I'm feeling the former. Hahaha. I miss my family time too actually. Now, by the time I get back from work, everyone would be asleep already. Whenever I'm awake, the house would be empty. It's just sucky sometimes. My mum asked me the sweetest thing, when will I have the time for her. She never asked me this before, so you can imagine how the situation is. Today was Hari Raya Haji, I wanted to go to my Grandma's house. You know just to soak in the atmosphere of being in the centre of a great bond. Oh well, my parents left without me cause I was still sleeping! I felt upset of course. I really wanted to go. Back then, I wouldn't care if I missed such gatherings. Now, honestly, I look forward to such gatherings. Tomorrow, would be my so called nephew's birthday chalet. God, how much I want to skip work just to attend. So sucky. Urgh.
Friends. I hope life is okay for you guys. I just met up with the bitchcrew minus the big forehead. Hope you're okay, bighead. It's no secret we're planning sth for the skinny bitch. It's just a matter of when. Haha. I'm so gonna get killed for saying this out loud.
I miss LA LING! I'm so sooooo sorry! I'm really shagged, honestly speaking. I really don't know when to meet you. HAHAHAHA. I have this feeling you have loads of stories to tell me, yes? I always love our pig-out sessions cause you always say you don't feel guilty eating with me after seeing my thighs. Well, guess what. I don't give a damn either. hahahaa. I hope I can slot you in soon, promise. :)
Oh, and I miss an old friend, Sufi. I always like how randomly he would ask me out for a meet-up. And how he would praise me I'm getting hotter. HAHAHAA. Now now, which sane girl wouldn't like that? Maybe, I should make the 1st move and ask him out this time around. But of course, he is not the 1st priority.
Love. Hmmmm. Some days we can be so so weird. I seriously think that we're a strange couple. Like all couple, we can be a bitch to each other at times. Screaming to each other and spewing vulgarities. And the next, we kiss and made up. What I learnt is that, it does not necessarily mean that when you're together for so long, you know everything about your partner. Nope, cause the thing is, everyday is a different, new day and a different circumstance, from there you will see a different side to a person that you will learn. It is not easy, of course. It is never easy with the all-too-familiar heartaches and wet patches on your pillow. I'm just hoping that it will be worthwhile in the long run and I hope, he feels the same way.
Of course, I love him with all my heart and he too (well, he better be). People mention that love is not easy, but they didn't say it would be this hard either. Naturally, I do hope that we do stick it out til the end. Fingers crossed that we'll be celebrating the 48th month anniversary and hopefully, many more months to come. I love you, hon.
Wow, it feels so damn good to have let out everything in this long entry. Guess I got my mojo back.
I pray that everyone's doing okay and you guys better do the same for me. KARMA, people, KARMA! ;)
I think I need to revamp the whole site or just simply shift everything. Wouldn't it be great if I'm friends with someone who can just do up everything for me? Yeah yeah, dream on I know.
Life's been okay. It's like a cycle, y'know? Sometimes you're up, but when it comes to being at the lowest point in your life, the moments seem to last forever. I always have this theory, let's call it the Nadia's Theory. It's like when one laughs or be happy too much, before you know it, you cry your sockets out the next seconds. Happens to me all the time. I know that sometimes people say, if you choose to believe in it, it WILL happen. It's not that I choose to believe in it, cause life would just be plain miserable for me. It's just that I think life have this delicate balance in almost everything. You win some, you're bound to lose some to make up for it.
Internship. Wow. I'm so tired of doing rooms, y'know. I don't know when the hell I'm gonna learn new things. I am happy working there, don't be mistaken. It's just that I feel I know the morale or challenges whatsoever that needed to be learnt in doing rooms. I've been doing it for like 3 months already, for god sake. i wanna learn new things! Haha. It's just that there always seem to be lacking of people, and oh well, being trainees, they make sure they work your ass off since you're at their mercy. I can't wait for next month's schedule to be out. If I'm still doing rooms, my oh my, I'm so talking to the manager. Roar.
Family. I am grateful. Sometimes that it. Not all families are perfect. Sometimes you wish that one by one they would be just different from reality. But on some days, you sit back and think to yourself, that you should be grateful. Now, I'm feeling the former. Hahaha. I miss my family time too actually. Now, by the time I get back from work, everyone would be asleep already. Whenever I'm awake, the house would be empty. It's just sucky sometimes. My mum asked me the sweetest thing, when will I have the time for her. She never asked me this before, so you can imagine how the situation is. Today was Hari Raya Haji, I wanted to go to my Grandma's house. You know just to soak in the atmosphere of being in the centre of a great bond. Oh well, my parents left without me cause I was still sleeping! I felt upset of course. I really wanted to go. Back then, I wouldn't care if I missed such gatherings. Now, honestly, I look forward to such gatherings. Tomorrow, would be my so called nephew's birthday chalet. God, how much I want to skip work just to attend. So sucky. Urgh.
Friends. I hope life is okay for you guys. I just met up with the bitchcrew minus the big forehead. Hope you're okay, bighead. It's no secret we're planning sth for the skinny bitch. It's just a matter of when. Haha. I'm so gonna get killed for saying this out loud.
I miss LA LING! I'm so sooooo sorry! I'm really shagged, honestly speaking. I really don't know when to meet you. HAHAHAHA. I have this feeling you have loads of stories to tell me, yes? I always love our pig-out sessions cause you always say you don't feel guilty eating with me after seeing my thighs. Well, guess what. I don't give a damn either. hahahaa. I hope I can slot you in soon, promise. :)
Oh, and I miss an old friend, Sufi. I always like how randomly he would ask me out for a meet-up. And how he would praise me I'm getting hotter. HAHAHAA. Now now, which sane girl wouldn't like that? Maybe, I should make the 1st move and ask him out this time around. But of course, he is not the 1st priority.
Love. Hmmmm. Some days we can be so so weird. I seriously think that we're a strange couple. Like all couple, we can be a bitch to each other at times. Screaming to each other and spewing vulgarities. And the next, we kiss and made up. What I learnt is that, it does not necessarily mean that when you're together for so long, you know everything about your partner. Nope, cause the thing is, everyday is a different, new day and a different circumstance, from there you will see a different side to a person that you will learn. It is not easy, of course. It is never easy with the all-too-familiar heartaches and wet patches on your pillow. I'm just hoping that it will be worthwhile in the long run and I hope, he feels the same way.
Of course, I love him with all my heart and he too (well, he better be). People mention that love is not easy, but they didn't say it would be this hard either. Naturally, I do hope that we do stick it out til the end. Fingers crossed that we'll be celebrating the 48th month anniversary and hopefully, many more months to come. I love you, hon.
Wow, it feels so damn good to have let out everything in this long entry. Guess I got my mojo back.
I pray that everyone's doing okay and you guys better do the same for me. KARMA, people, KARMA! ;)