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so.... i dont know whats going on with me and justin... im still very attracted to him... but i hate him so much...its so confusing. Ryan, justins bestfriend and me have been chilling together alot lately. i think its because he saw what justin was doing to me and he felt bad or something.
today he came over and we watched fight club. we were laying down together on the couch and cuddling and stuff.... it was nice.. even though i know he probally wanted to do more than that. i like having a guy friend i can just chill with. i dont know where this is going between us because we were flirting and all.. but i still have a thing for justin...(and thats his best friend). After the movie was over it was about 4:00 and ryan had to work at 4:30 so he had to leave. i gave him a big hug(and its so cute cause hes super tall)... and then i juss kinda told him that i didnt know if i wanted to start any sort of relationship because i ALWAYS get FUCKED OVER and hes seen it happen to me over and over again.... so i didnt kiss him or anything.. then he said that it was alright and that wed just talk about it later
hes so sweet... but i dont know... i just dont like him like that.... ? or well i dont know... i kinda do... but justin is always on my mind..
today he came over and we watched fight club. we were laying down together on the couch and cuddling and stuff.... it was nice.. even though i know he probally wanted to do more than that. i like having a guy friend i can just chill with. i dont know where this is going between us because we were flirting and all.. but i still have a thing for justin...(and thats his best friend). After the movie was over it was about 4:00 and ryan had to work at 4:30 so he had to leave. i gave him a big hug(and its so cute cause hes super tall)... and then i juss kinda told him that i didnt know if i wanted to start any sort of relationship because i ALWAYS get FUCKED OVER and hes seen it happen to me over and over again.... so i didnt kiss him or anything.. then he said that it was alright and that wed just talk about it later
hes so sweet... but i dont know... i just dont like him like that.... ? or well i dont know... i kinda do... but justin is always on my mind..