Back in Black
I don't know what it is lately but I feel like writing, maybe it's the fact that I am extremely stressed out and this is my way to de-stress.
Someone I care about deeply has cancer and I'm honestly scared. Actually I feel extremely conflicted because , well this woman watched me grow up and her eldest daughter is pretty much my big sister. The day that her daugher told me what was going on with her mom, well I cried. They've done two surgeries so far and on the first surgery they found masses that were cancerous in her uterus. The second time they went back, which was last friday, they didn't find anything. She was suppose to have a doctors appt yesterday but I've not talked to her daughter yet to see how it went. I do know that they're going to start chemo in two to four weeks. People survive this, I know they do - then why is this upsetting me so much? Her daughter talks to me about it and I don't think she realizes that it's upsetting me too. Her family does not deserve this, no one does, and I'm not sure I can watch this drain their strength. I just pray with all of my heart that she survives this.
In other news I'm extremely stressed out but surprisingly able to stay pretty chill at the same time. I've been doing homework all week and I feel like I've barely made a dent in all that I need to do. We perform our scene tomorrow for the first time off book and I'm not really nervous as much as excited. I've probably already mentioned but we're doing a scene from Crimes of the heart and I play Babe (Becky) and the scene is hilarious. I have my lines down but we've not really worked in the space yet because of time constraints. I have an annotated bibliography and a test on Friday and we've got to pack up the car for Memphis and we leave on Friday. You know, college seems trivial compared to general life at the moment.
This weekend is what's keeping me going
Someone I care about deeply has cancer and I'm honestly scared. Actually I feel extremely conflicted because , well this woman watched me grow up and her eldest daughter is pretty much my big sister. The day that her daugher told me what was going on with her mom, well I cried. They've done two surgeries so far and on the first surgery they found masses that were cancerous in her uterus. The second time they went back, which was last friday, they didn't find anything. She was suppose to have a doctors appt yesterday but I've not talked to her daughter yet to see how it went. I do know that they're going to start chemo in two to four weeks. People survive this, I know they do - then why is this upsetting me so much? Her daughter talks to me about it and I don't think she realizes that it's upsetting me too. Her family does not deserve this, no one does, and I'm not sure I can watch this drain their strength. I just pray with all of my heart that she survives this.
In other news I'm extremely stressed out but surprisingly able to stay pretty chill at the same time. I've been doing homework all week and I feel like I've barely made a dent in all that I need to do. We perform our scene tomorrow for the first time off book and I'm not really nervous as much as excited. I've probably already mentioned but we're doing a scene from Crimes of the heart and I play Babe (Becky) and the scene is hilarious. I have my lines down but we've not really worked in the space yet because of time constraints. I have an annotated bibliography and a test on Friday and we've got to pack up the car for Memphis and we leave on Friday. You know, college seems trivial compared to general life at the moment.
This weekend is what's keeping me going