i hate people
i really dont understand people. i try really hard to be nice to everyone unless they give me a reason otherwise. i stay out of other people's business for the most part, unless they are my friend. yet no matter what i do people always have something bad to say about me. am i that bad of a person? if so, please tell me what it is that i've done, because im not seeing it. i hate people talking about me like im some terrible person who has done horrible things. i wish people would just talk to me if they had a problem with me. but the thing that sucks the most, is that most of the time when i hear that people are saying stuff about me, i dont even know who it is. how the hell does that make sense? i mean i just feel like there's no reason for me to try being nice to anyone anymore when im just gonna end up being talked bad about and then feel like shit. i dont even want to be around anyone anymore. i feel like being completely antisocial and never going anywhere or doing anything just keeping to myself. but i cant do that because thats not how i am and im not gonna do that just so people will keep their mouths shut. i try not to worry about what other peole think, but when they keep saying mean & untruthful things, it really starts to hurt me emotionally. im in such bad condition mentally right now, i cant really take all this other crap from people. i wish i was invisible or something so i wouldnt have to deal with everyone.