what do you see when you look at me? what do you take me for???
im ready for us to go ahead and move already. ive said all my goodbyes and im fucking sick of watching my house disappear. its the weirdest feeling in the world because everyone already acts like im not here anymore (well not everyone) and i just feel like i dont belong here anymore. i just really need to feel needed right about now, starting over is the scariest thing in the world. i cant even describe what its like, but theres a billion and one thoughts buzzing around my head and its... i wish i could just stop thinking. these little things that normally woudnt matter to me are eating away at me. yeah this made no sense, but i know what im talking about. im just... unsettled? i cant find the words. but im definitely not alright. i really just want to get out of here by now, i keep saying goodbye but i can never leave. just fucking get this over with. why does this hurt so bad? i dont even know what hurts! i just.. do... i want to cry so fucking bad.