go away...please...
once again I write in secret in the middle of the morning plagued with not being able to sleep. Only this time, my lack of sleep is not only due to the swirling whirlwind of thoughts in my head, but also to a huge headache and to the feeling that I need to throw up.
Lately I feel as if I am in the midst of a hurricane and it is throwing me here and there like a helpless rag doll. He asks what's wrong and I am not able to tell him because all I know is that there are multiple battles going on inside my head. This side of the story vs. that side and this belief vs. that belief.
aye mami.
I probably won't sleep tonight which means a very hyper me tomorrow. I know...I work oppositely.
I have decided that I just don't like people. I like fewer than I dislike. This is bad, I think. But the ones I do like, I would do anything for...I dunno...it's odd.
I heard noises up in the attic (it is right over my room) and while I would rather believe it be a ghost or spirit sent to help me (yes, I do believe in ghosts and spirits) I am afraid it is the alternative...mice. Which means I have to inform my parents that we need to hire someone to get rid of the problem. If they don't find anything...then I am convinced.
2 hours 'till everyone wakes up in my house. After Ryan gets his shower promptly at 5 a.m. I will go take a bubble bath to start me for my day. Maybe cook breakfast for my family as well.
But what to do for the next 2 hours...an Adam Sandler movie perhaps? Yes...that sounds lovely.
Lately I feel as if I am in the midst of a hurricane and it is throwing me here and there like a helpless rag doll. He asks what's wrong and I am not able to tell him because all I know is that there are multiple battles going on inside my head. This side of the story vs. that side and this belief vs. that belief.
aye mami.
I probably won't sleep tonight which means a very hyper me tomorrow. I know...I work oppositely.
I have decided that I just don't like people. I like fewer than I dislike. This is bad, I think. But the ones I do like, I would do anything for...I dunno...it's odd.
I heard noises up in the attic (it is right over my room) and while I would rather believe it be a ghost or spirit sent to help me (yes, I do believe in ghosts and spirits) I am afraid it is the alternative...mice. Which means I have to inform my parents that we need to hire someone to get rid of the problem. If they don't find anything...then I am convinced.
2 hours 'till everyone wakes up in my house. After Ryan gets his shower promptly at 5 a.m. I will go take a bubble bath to start me for my day. Maybe cook breakfast for my family as well.
But what to do for the next 2 hours...an Adam Sandler movie perhaps? Yes...that sounds lovely.