it's the way that he kisses you. that he makes you fall in love ♥
DATE 411
she's beautiful as usual with bruises on her ego and
the killer instinct tells her to be aware of evil men.
going into the night i was straight-up hesitant. and a nervous wreck. this could be it. the answer to everything. for once, things may look up and my love life wouldn't suck so damn much anymore. i made sure i looked amazing. and i did. i had all the confidence in the world. walking outside and seeing him, my face lit up. he looked great. just for me. it meant so much that he went through all the trouble of trying to look nice for me. at first, i was shy. i couldn't help it. it's how i am. but over time, he made me feel comfortable. comfortable enough to start showing him how wonderful of a person i really am. first - dinner at applebees. it was great. we talked about everything and anything. he had such high hopes for the night. i loved it. no guy ever told me, as much as him, how they thought things were going to turn out so great in the end. he was so easy to talk to. he told me anything i wanted to know. no matter the subject, he was willing to talk about it. i love that!! communication is always important. over dinner and conversation, i was flirty, to a certain extent. i didn't want to just put myself out there and make myself look like a whorebag or something of the sort. after dinner we went to blockbuster to get movies; the hills have eyes & something with usher in it. then we went back to his house. i had to prepare myself to meet his family. it's a lot to try and impress him and then impress his family, especially his mom. one thing that's super important to me is the mother. i want her to like me. we got there and i was ready. i was kinda excited for it because i talked to his little brother on the phone twice and well, i wasn't worried at all. i knew he'd like me and that's one thing tom said that had to go well. we get there. i met mike smith, finally. allison never really introduced me to him whenever they were kinda a thing. and i met his one brother. the rest of the family wasn't there though. it was a relief in a way but i kinda wanted to meet them. then we went to his room which was this little room off a garage to watch the movies. we couldn't get the dvd player to work so we just laid on the bed and talked. when he tried to kiss me at first, i denied it. it's not that i didn't want to. (1) i wanted to be a tease and the main reason (2) it wasn't the right time. i didn't want to screw anything up this time. i wanted everything to be perfect. he knew that. we talked about it. it was an understanding between us. so after awhile of teasing, it happened. we kissed and it was great. both of us love to kiss so just laying there and kissing without anything else wasn't a big thing. it was truly amazing. after awhile, he went down to get his brother's XBOX to see if we could get the movies to work on that. yeahhh. they didn't. later we found out old that there was a chance he had to watch michael (his little brother) so he may have to cut our night short. i just figured that meant that we'd have to go down to the house and watch him. i was kinda sad because i wanted to spend so much more time with him. i liked everything we were doing. i liked being with him and i didn't want it to end. well, he found out he did and i found out that cutting the night short meant him taking me home because michael wouldn't go to bed or anything if i was there. i totally understood everything. i just didn't want it to end. in the little time we had before he took me home, one thing led to another and well, let's just say 22 days without getting my swerve on wasn't going to be 23. sex wasn't something we planned on. truly. i wanted to take it slow but it happened. i don't regret it, at all. i did it because i wanted to share that with him and it happened. the feelings were there. it wasn't a wham bam thank you m'am, kinda thing. in the middle i stopped it. it's not that it wasn't good. it was absolutely amazing. i just knew he had to take me home and i didn't want to seem selfish by keeping him up there. he reassured me that it wasn't the end of things and that he really appreciated that i understood why the night had to end. when we pulled into the driveway, i kissed him goodbye twice and we said our goodbyes.
pretty soon she'll figure out:
you can never get him out of your head.
in the end, i know i'm falling. jay hurt me so bad and i haven't delt with all that hurt just yet but i'm not going to let that stop me from sharing something great with him. if it's supposed to happen, it will and i'm going to let it. i want it to happen. i want to be happy and tom makes me happy. right now, i don't know everything i need to know about him yet but from what i know, i love everything about him. he makes me feel so great. he makes me smile. he makes me laugh and he makes me want more. and most importantly, he makes me want to love again. we'll see what the future brings us. cross your fingers for good things.
always be classy. never be crazy.
the day after tells you A LOT. and let's just say it's not looking too great. it's almost 5:00. no message. no call. no nothing. but i've learned how to react; no matter how much you're worried, don't freak out. not until you know the story. and no sneaky bitch business. that gets you in trouble.
she's beautiful as usual with bruises on her ego and
the killer instinct tells her to be aware of evil men.
going into the night i was straight-up hesitant. and a nervous wreck. this could be it. the answer to everything. for once, things may look up and my love life wouldn't suck so damn much anymore. i made sure i looked amazing. and i did. i had all the confidence in the world. walking outside and seeing him, my face lit up. he looked great. just for me. it meant so much that he went through all the trouble of trying to look nice for me. at first, i was shy. i couldn't help it. it's how i am. but over time, he made me feel comfortable. comfortable enough to start showing him how wonderful of a person i really am. first - dinner at applebees. it was great. we talked about everything and anything. he had such high hopes for the night. i loved it. no guy ever told me, as much as him, how they thought things were going to turn out so great in the end. he was so easy to talk to. he told me anything i wanted to know. no matter the subject, he was willing to talk about it. i love that!! communication is always important. over dinner and conversation, i was flirty, to a certain extent. i didn't want to just put myself out there and make myself look like a whorebag or something of the sort. after dinner we went to blockbuster to get movies; the hills have eyes & something with usher in it. then we went back to his house. i had to prepare myself to meet his family. it's a lot to try and impress him and then impress his family, especially his mom. one thing that's super important to me is the mother. i want her to like me. we got there and i was ready. i was kinda excited for it because i talked to his little brother on the phone twice and well, i wasn't worried at all. i knew he'd like me and that's one thing tom said that had to go well. we get there. i met mike smith, finally. allison never really introduced me to him whenever they were kinda a thing. and i met his one brother. the rest of the family wasn't there though. it was a relief in a way but i kinda wanted to meet them. then we went to his room which was this little room off a garage to watch the movies. we couldn't get the dvd player to work so we just laid on the bed and talked. when he tried to kiss me at first, i denied it. it's not that i didn't want to. (1) i wanted to be a tease and the main reason (2) it wasn't the right time. i didn't want to screw anything up this time. i wanted everything to be perfect. he knew that. we talked about it. it was an understanding between us. so after awhile of teasing, it happened. we kissed and it was great. both of us love to kiss so just laying there and kissing without anything else wasn't a big thing. it was truly amazing. after awhile, he went down to get his brother's XBOX to see if we could get the movies to work on that. yeahhh. they didn't. later we found out old that there was a chance he had to watch michael (his little brother) so he may have to cut our night short. i just figured that meant that we'd have to go down to the house and watch him. i was kinda sad because i wanted to spend so much more time with him. i liked everything we were doing. i liked being with him and i didn't want it to end. well, he found out he did and i found out that cutting the night short meant him taking me home because michael wouldn't go to bed or anything if i was there. i totally understood everything. i just didn't want it to end. in the little time we had before he took me home, one thing led to another and well, let's just say 22 days without getting my swerve on wasn't going to be 23. sex wasn't something we planned on. truly. i wanted to take it slow but it happened. i don't regret it, at all. i did it because i wanted to share that with him and it happened. the feelings were there. it wasn't a wham bam thank you m'am, kinda thing. in the middle i stopped it. it's not that it wasn't good. it was absolutely amazing. i just knew he had to take me home and i didn't want to seem selfish by keeping him up there. he reassured me that it wasn't the end of things and that he really appreciated that i understood why the night had to end. when we pulled into the driveway, i kissed him goodbye twice and we said our goodbyes.
pretty soon she'll figure out:
you can never get him out of your head.
in the end, i know i'm falling. jay hurt me so bad and i haven't delt with all that hurt just yet but i'm not going to let that stop me from sharing something great with him. if it's supposed to happen, it will and i'm going to let it. i want it to happen. i want to be happy and tom makes me happy. right now, i don't know everything i need to know about him yet but from what i know, i love everything about him. he makes me feel so great. he makes me smile. he makes me laugh and he makes me want more. and most importantly, he makes me want to love again. we'll see what the future brings us. cross your fingers for good things.
always be classy. never be crazy.
the day after tells you A LOT. and let's just say it's not looking too great. it's almost 5:00. no message. no call. no nothing. but i've learned how to react; no matter how much you're worried, don't freak out. not until you know the story. and no sneaky bitch business. that gets you in trouble.