FIRST ENTRY
it was time for a new live journal. ive changes so much in the past year and, i dont want to be linked to all of my past activities and drama, not to say that theres much i regret but, moving forward is a good thing.
one month into my junior year at belleville high school. wow, i can remember being in 5th and 6th grades ans how much i hated it. i wont get into the details of it all but basically, i never really had anywhere to fit in back then, i was too much of a tomboy for the girls and little girls have cooties or something along those lines so, that meant the boys didnt like me. then came middle school, it went by quicky, i was still lonely and awkward but, i had one or two close friends and that was fine. i learned alot in middle school...like how to stand up for myself, and the value of trust. as lame of a place as bhs is, id have to say that im happy with all i have experienced so far. i dont know, it was just something ive been thinking about lately.
its strange, i cant really describe the mood ive been in lately, im not sure weather im exteremely happy or extremely sad all i know is that things have been extremely different:
my parents: i dont know if they trust me more or if theyre just starting to give up but, things at home are alot better than they used to be. i have an 11:00 curfew, which blows but, its later than i used to have-who knows maybe someday ill have a reasonable curfew.i can go out whenever i wish as long as im home on time and they dont give me shit for it. we dont fight nearly as much (which im guessing is a result to me not being home nearly as much but, whatever) and they actually listen to me when i talk for the most part.
my brother: hes still the weirdest 11 year old i have ever met. i try to get him to listen to music, or talk, or walk past the front door (not somehting he does often) wiht me but, im not sure how well thats working. ehhhhh....
school: i dont really bother with too many of the people these days except for my friends. im not in any clubs other than PEP club and we dont really go to meetings for that, i dont know if im playing softball this year due to work but, i think my grades are alot better than last year. except for the fact that i might fail algebra 2 bc im math illiterate like you wouldnt believe.
friends: ok, so things are good for the most part, not too much to talk about. we drive amilessly, eat fastfood and get high and due to the fact that i have no car, theres really no other option. there all cool people i just wouldnt mind if teh meaningless drama adn occatiional backstabbing would stip but, i guess its all part of growing up, who knos.
guys: ok, well, this my lovelies is a long story. see, everything i touch turns to stone, i guess that works hnd in hand with the fact that i hurt every boy who shows any interest. ehhh, story for another time i suppose.
ok, maybe ill be back later
later skaters
one month into my junior year at belleville high school. wow, i can remember being in 5th and 6th grades ans how much i hated it. i wont get into the details of it all but basically, i never really had anywhere to fit in back then, i was too much of a tomboy for the girls and little girls have cooties or something along those lines so, that meant the boys didnt like me. then came middle school, it went by quicky, i was still lonely and awkward but, i had one or two close friends and that was fine. i learned alot in middle school...like how to stand up for myself, and the value of trust. as lame of a place as bhs is, id have to say that im happy with all i have experienced so far. i dont know, it was just something ive been thinking about lately.
its strange, i cant really describe the mood ive been in lately, im not sure weather im exteremely happy or extremely sad all i know is that things have been extremely different:
my parents: i dont know if they trust me more or if theyre just starting to give up but, things at home are alot better than they used to be. i have an 11:00 curfew, which blows but, its later than i used to have-who knows maybe someday ill have a reasonable curfew.i can go out whenever i wish as long as im home on time and they dont give me shit for it. we dont fight nearly as much (which im guessing is a result to me not being home nearly as much but, whatever) and they actually listen to me when i talk for the most part.
my brother: hes still the weirdest 11 year old i have ever met. i try to get him to listen to music, or talk, or walk past the front door (not somehting he does often) wiht me but, im not sure how well thats working. ehhhhh....
school: i dont really bother with too many of the people these days except for my friends. im not in any clubs other than PEP club and we dont really go to meetings for that, i dont know if im playing softball this year due to work but, i think my grades are alot better than last year. except for the fact that i might fail algebra 2 bc im math illiterate like you wouldnt believe.
friends: ok, so things are good for the most part, not too much to talk about. we drive amilessly, eat fastfood and get high and due to the fact that i have no car, theres really no other option. there all cool people i just wouldnt mind if teh meaningless drama adn occatiional backstabbing would stip but, i guess its all part of growing up, who knos.
guys: ok, well, this my lovelies is a long story. see, everything i touch turns to stone, i guess that works hnd in hand with the fact that i hurt every boy who shows any interest. ehhh, story for another time i suppose.
ok, maybe ill be back later
later skaters