whats up kids??
sorry i havent been updating/commenting much the last few days, i havent even been online.
im not gonna summarize the whole week b.c well, who the hell cares.
friends and the guy situation have been really good. no drama (im over it, ive learned to distance myself from the drama, who needs it) thse days.
"the boy" treats me good and things are going well. i dont feel the need to get into it but....its good. its stressfee and fun, which is what i wanted.
i wish sean wouldnt hang out with derrick. i mean, i kno were not that close (although im hoping someday well be good friends again) but, i still care about him. i love derrick and all but, hes got "baggage" for lack of a better word, and i dont want to see sean get dragged into that.
work is good. things have settled down alot. although things arent the same and we all miss john, things are at least running well. i like julia alot (my manager) and lu is the sweetest(pizza guy), all the people are real nice. my boss isnt around much, which is good( stress free).
im learning to be more "personable" bc of work (which by the way, was my new years resolution). yes, i come off outgoing and all but, in a lot of situations im kinda shy, not rude, just not outgoing. i cant let myself be like that anymore, it kills me (long story).
my parents are still very much up my ass, theres really nothing i can do about that but, no need to bitch about it here, uve all heard enough of that.
school sucks pretty bad. its wierd, most people are like straight A students or "c" students who have the occational sucky grade, not me. i have high As in some classes and LOW grades in others. i went WAY down in history but, at least im still passing. chemistry i know NOTHING but that class is a joke and i have an A (the kid behind me happens to be smart. ha) and algebra 2 i have a 48 average (65 is passing)!!!!( shyt , we have a PEP club trip soon and i bet that douche isnt gonna let me go). my dads gonna get me a tutor but i doubt itll help, I DONT WANNA GO TO SUMMER SHCOOL AGAIN, its hell.
i got my prom dress, its red and purdy (it was 175 and i didnt have to pay for alterations, not so bad) i bought long black gloves (15) and i think im wearing shoes i already have. tickets and limo is paid off and i think my dads gonna pay for my hair and nails, and i already made the appoontments so, i dont have anything left to worry about. well...except for the fact that we have NO clue where were goin after prom and its on the 16th, i wish those @holes would just let find us a hotel room to go party. well, either way its good bc now i can start saving money again (i only have 300 in the bank, thats sad).
man, i wish me and jess could go back the the way we were over the summer. i miss her so much its crazy. like, were done with the stupid arguing and talking about each other, the past is the past. i just miss her so much. i hate that we barely see each other anymore bc of our parents. thats rediculous. im not very fond of her mom for what shes said about me (whatever happened or to her daughghter is NOT my fault, i love the girl to death and id never let any1 hurt her, she knos id stand up for her in a heartbeat and, contrary to her mothers belief, i dotn have a tendency to lie) but, all shit talking aside; i dont care if her mom doesnt like me but, ijust at least wish shed allow jess to hang out with me. ugh :(
i saw my uncle ralph yesterday, he came over the get something to eat i think ::shrugs::, it was really sad. i felt sick, he looked horrible. eh, im not getting into it.
damn, i wrote way more than i intended to but, whatever. comment if u wish, make me feel loved.
im not gonna summarize the whole week b.c well, who the hell cares.
friends and the guy situation have been really good. no drama (im over it, ive learned to distance myself from the drama, who needs it) thse days.
"the boy" treats me good and things are going well. i dont feel the need to get into it but....its good. its stressfee and fun, which is what i wanted.
i wish sean wouldnt hang out with derrick. i mean, i kno were not that close (although im hoping someday well be good friends again) but, i still care about him. i love derrick and all but, hes got "baggage" for lack of a better word, and i dont want to see sean get dragged into that.
work is good. things have settled down alot. although things arent the same and we all miss john, things are at least running well. i like julia alot (my manager) and lu is the sweetest(pizza guy), all the people are real nice. my boss isnt around much, which is good( stress free).
im learning to be more "personable" bc of work (which by the way, was my new years resolution). yes, i come off outgoing and all but, in a lot of situations im kinda shy, not rude, just not outgoing. i cant let myself be like that anymore, it kills me (long story).
my parents are still very much up my ass, theres really nothing i can do about that but, no need to bitch about it here, uve all heard enough of that.
school sucks pretty bad. its wierd, most people are like straight A students or "c" students who have the occational sucky grade, not me. i have high As in some classes and LOW grades in others. i went WAY down in history but, at least im still passing. chemistry i know NOTHING but that class is a joke and i have an A (the kid behind me happens to be smart. ha) and algebra 2 i have a 48 average (65 is passing)!!!!( shyt , we have a PEP club trip soon and i bet that douche isnt gonna let me go). my dads gonna get me a tutor but i doubt itll help, I DONT WANNA GO TO SUMMER SHCOOL AGAIN, its hell.
i got my prom dress, its red and purdy (it was 175 and i didnt have to pay for alterations, not so bad) i bought long black gloves (15) and i think im wearing shoes i already have. tickets and limo is paid off and i think my dads gonna pay for my hair and nails, and i already made the appoontments so, i dont have anything left to worry about. well...except for the fact that we have NO clue where were goin after prom and its on the 16th, i wish those @holes would just let find us a hotel room to go party. well, either way its good bc now i can start saving money again (i only have 300 in the bank, thats sad).
man, i wish me and jess could go back the the way we were over the summer. i miss her so much its crazy. like, were done with the stupid arguing and talking about each other, the past is the past. i just miss her so much. i hate that we barely see each other anymore bc of our parents. thats rediculous. im not very fond of her mom for what shes said about me (whatever happened or to her daughghter is NOT my fault, i love the girl to death and id never let any1 hurt her, she knos id stand up for her in a heartbeat and, contrary to her mothers belief, i dotn have a tendency to lie) but, all shit talking aside; i dont care if her mom doesnt like me but, ijust at least wish shed allow jess to hang out with me. ugh :(
i saw my uncle ralph yesterday, he came over the get something to eat i think ::shrugs::, it was really sad. i felt sick, he looked horrible. eh, im not getting into it.
damn, i wrote way more than i intended to but, whatever. comment if u wish, make me feel loved.