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[hickgirlash]

I realized today a lot of the reason that I seem to moping anymore.... It's really taking a toll on me that my Kenneth has to be over seas until novemeber.. I thought that I was strong girl that i could handle this but having him gone now for over a year is just killing me... He is one of my best guy friends, someone who knows all the strenghts and my weaknesses.... not only that.. he is someone whom i need to talk to when I get depressed... I love the kid to death.. and without him here I am feeling depressed... not knowing when the next time I am going to hear from him scares me.. what if i lose him? what if something happens to him over there?? i know i will be one of the first people to know... but damn its a scary fucking situation...

I love you Kenny McIntosh and Ihope you come home soon!!!! Be safe over there... You are in my heart and prayers.......

I also feel like a terrible roomate... Like whatever I do I can't make my roomates as happy as other people can.. it hurts... :( goodnight yall