abandonment of live journal
Yass, I have abandoned livejournal for the evil cyber crack known as myspace. I decided it was time to give a little update.
Been in brooklyn for 3 weeks now, and everything is pretty cool. New york is fun and mike is awesome. I have met a ton of amazing people and I hope I can figure o ut what is good for me and persue it. Soul searching has definetely been going on and I realized many many things.
1. I have made so many mistakes and not owned up to them out of fear. well here it is, my time to admit to myself and everyone else how much of a fuck up I am. I have lied, cheated and hurt people-not on purpose, but in my own way purposefully. For that, I am sorry.
2. I was a selfish brat-Which most people can be accused of at the age of 15...but I am now 18 and I see the error of my ways. I have alot of love to give, but i think i only gave it for the return-though it was genuine. I feel at peace with being sad-because lets face it..its necessarry.
3. I love so many people, from my past and present-though I can never say it alooud. To do this would make me voulnerable. I must admit im sick of being stone...I love some people so it much it aches. I am currently looking for the courage to be honest with the people I care about.
4. Michigan was a shithole-but it was MY shithole. Im not saying I want to come back-im simply saying I realize there was good there-even when I couldnt see it. I have realized and understand the awesome power of longing-and for that I am greatful.
and finally....
5. Absence makes the heart grow fonder...cliche? yes. but that doesnt make it any less true.
so there you go...a little update. enjoy bitches!
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Been in brooklyn for 3 weeks now, and everything is pretty cool. New york is fun and mike is awesome. I have met a ton of amazing people and I hope I can figure o ut what is good for me and persue it. Soul searching has definetely been going on and I realized many many things.
1. I have made so many mistakes and not owned up to them out of fear. well here it is, my time to admit to myself and everyone else how much of a fuck up I am. I have lied, cheated and hurt people-not on purpose, but in my own way purposefully. For that, I am sorry.
2. I was a selfish brat-Which most people can be accused of at the age of 15...but I am now 18 and I see the error of my ways. I have alot of love to give, but i think i only gave it for the return-though it was genuine. I feel at peace with being sad-because lets face it..its necessarry.
3. I love so many people, from my past and present-though I can never say it alooud. To do this would make me voulnerable. I must admit im sick of being stone...I love some people so it much it aches. I am currently looking for the courage to be honest with the people I care about.
4. Michigan was a shithole-but it was MY shithole. Im not saying I want to come back-im simply saying I realize there was good there-even when I couldnt see it. I have realized and understand the awesome power of longing-and for that I am greatful.
and finally....
5. Absence makes the heart grow fonder...cliche? yes. but that doesnt make it any less true.
so there you go...a little update. enjoy bitches!
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa