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January: It's ok if I believe in astrology just for today, right? Good.
Febuary: So I'm home for break. The island feels so different now.
March: Background: The reason I never update is whenever I reflect on the day I decide that whatever it was I did that day was too mundane to write about.
April: There hasn't been much in the the way of trivial, "that's not worth writing about" sort of things in the last few weeks.
May: Was this ever not my life?
June: Day=made.
July: I was a big Wonder Years fan, back when it was on Nick at Nite.
August: It's important to unpack your things when you get home, or, failing that, within the first month.
September: No entries
October: Moments ago, looking for love, I typed it into the address bar and was saddened to see that love.com redirects to personals.aol.com.
November: If I wanted to, my schedule for winter 2008 could easily be:
December: I'm reading my Physio Psych book, doing the take home final.
Only one month without an entry, of course it was my first month back at school. My prediction for last year came true, 2007 was SO much different and SO MUCH better than 2006. I didn't do everything I wanted, I could have spent the summer better, but I learned so much. I met some cool people, and got to know some people better. I think psychology might really be in my future, I made a more serious commitment to theatre, time & energywise and heartwise. It won't be till I get out there that I find out how much of a choice I really have to make.
I think that's the most important thing I learned this year: the things that look like big either or choices often aren't. I learned to recognize the false dilemma, see the third option, and it's something that sets me apart. When others are making the best of it, I want to make it better.
I realized how privledged I am. Food so abundant that we actually have to worry about obesity is a ridiculous thing to have. Don't be grateful, go out and do something. I've often wondered how many people are born every decade with the genetics to be an Einstein or a Bohr, hardwired for a brain that could cure AIDS, create a symphony that brings down a government, or finish what Shakespeare started, but instead will die of starvation before reaching puberty.
It's not about gratitude, or even appreciation. I think if we really appreciate what we have, we think that's enough. It's a sad fact that adversity makes us stronger. Why can't a child with the best possible start do the same thing and far more than one who had to struggle for everything? Why can't you do anything?
What I'm working on for 2008 is just being more specific. Keeping a paper journal with no dealines, no restrictions. The thing about deadlines is once they're past you can relax. You think, "Ten more hours and one way or another I'm done." You think, "The mail goes out at five." then at five you think, "To late, now I have another 24 hours." Deadlines are bad for me, without them you're accountable right now. I want to write more but I have a New Year's Eve party to get to.
...to which to get.