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[hiccup_ninja]

Why do people feel the need to love? To forge bonds and friendships with other human beings?

...I'm still trying to understand this. I want to know.

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[Gaara|Hard to Hack]

[fallingjunkyard]

Do you feel the need to love?

[Joshua|Hard to Hack]

[hiccup_ninja]

....I believe so.

[Gaara|Hard to Hack]

[fallingjunkyard]

For some, it's simply their nature to love. For others, there are many other reasons. A dream based upon a romanticised idea of love. A need to feel wanted, a need to feel special. People can be rather self-centered like that. What's your reason?

[Joshua|Hard to Hack]

[hiccup_ninja]

...All my life love has been one of those things I had heard of, but never felt for myself. I had been doomed to live as an unfeeling, unwanted demon and I've never believed I was anything different. I had simply resigned myself to the idea of just living until I died, and never knowing things like love or bonds or friendship.

But now...I have the opprotunity to feel love, and I even have someone who is willing to love me in return. In fact, he already does. But I doubt my own capabilities. I don't want to hurt him anymore than I already have.

[Gaara|Hard to Hack] Excuse this guy; he's a dick.

[fallingjunkyard]

I didn't ask for your life story, you know. A simple, 'someone has a crush on me and I feel conflicted' would have done.

You'll hurt your dear beau regardless of whether you want to or not, you know.

[Joshua|Hard to Hack] Lol, dick excused.

[hiccup_ninja]

You would not have been able to give an applicable answer if you did not know. Simple as that.

...I should have guessed that much. That is frustrating.

[Gaara|Hard to Hack]

[fallingjunkyard]

Is that so? People are generally quite predictable. Your story is hardly unique amongst many others.

Are you wishing you were able to give your admirer that perfect relationship where no one gets hurt and everything is happy all the time?

[Joshua|Hard to Hack]

[hiccup_ninja]

I believe that that is the sort of relationship he had in mind when he told me he loved me. His views of such sujects can be rather...idealistic at times, though I think some of his opinions have changed since then.

But I am not asking for perfection. I simply want to protect my best friend from further pain.

[Gaara|Hard to Hack]

[fallingjunkyard]

Would you call a lover who loves only when there is no hurt in loving a lover? Pain can be a teacher whose hard teachings bear sweeter fruit in the future.

[Joshua|Hard to Hack]

[hiccup_ninja]

I don't understand.

[Gaara|Hard to Hack]

[fallingjunkyard]

Oh, was that too difficult for you to understand? I do dislike having to explain things twice, but I suppose I'll make an exception for you.

A lover who flees and never comes back at the first sign of a rocky road likely doesn't really care about you.

[Troll|Hard to Hack]

[hiccup_ninja]

...I see.

...But I already know that he cares a great deal for me.

[Y thank you|Hard to Hack]

[fallingjunkyard]

Then he'll probably willingly take the pain. He could be into that thing, you know.

[Joshua|Hard to Hack]

[hiccup_ninja]

Into it? What do you mean?

[Gaara|Hard to Hack]

[fallingjunkyard]

I suppose I'll have to explain the concept of masochism to you. In simple terms, it just means he could like pain and suffering. There's more to it than that, of course, but... baby steps.

[Joshua|Hard to Hack]

[hiccup_ninja]

I do not see how someone could like pain and suffering. That makes no sense.