(no subject)
i never felt this down before.......gawd. what is happening to me?!
i hope im not pestering you with this again but i...i have no one to talk to.
pardon me, but im eager for anything anyone could give me right now. maybe a hug?
you people have been nothing but nice to me and stuff...so umm...thank you, really. i mean it.
i had the chance to talk with my bestfriend today, but he just shrugged and walk off. when i screamed at him and told me that it was over between me and my bf and basically told me that it really doesnt make a difference...i had nu idea wut to do...i..cried like shit and i grabbed on his shirt, i looked like tramp, but i really dun care. even if i have to beg i will.
a hug followed after that, he said that my tears wont resolve any of this with that he..he left.
i just cant stop crying, he never left me, emotionally i mean. oh god.idunno wut TO DO DAMMIT!
what does he want me to do? crawl, cry till kingdom come? is it so hard to understand that i cant return his feelings?
moron, if you ever are reading this, dun leave me. i have no one, please? im..im begging you. ill do anything you want, anything just..just dun leave me. im sorry. i really am.
btw, maggie, i found my phone. call me if u have the time.
edit 1: so..he has this 'diza' girl now eh? wut kind of name is that?! thats bullshit! and why i am acting so jealous?! argh!
if thats how he wanted it then fine.
i hope u and diza burn in hell! i cant believe i wasted 3 boxes of precious cleenex for an ass like you. and i hope i so hope...that your gonna rot in hell with that diza girl, die bitch. i hate you. and yes, i am jealous! why?! because i'm not used of the idea that you have other friends who are girls, other than me. and i want to stick a hotdog to ur ass for making me feel bad and missing you like hell.
just so you know, im not taking back what i said.
i really do miss you.
i hope im not pestering you with this again but i...i have no one to talk to.
pardon me, but im eager for anything anyone could give me right now. maybe a hug?
you people have been nothing but nice to me and stuff...so umm...thank you, really. i mean it.
i had the chance to talk with my bestfriend today, but he just shrugged and walk off. when i screamed at him and told me that it was over between me and my bf and basically told me that it really doesnt make a difference...i had nu idea wut to do...i..cried like shit and i grabbed on his shirt, i looked like tramp, but i really dun care. even if i have to beg i will.
a hug followed after that, he said that my tears wont resolve any of this with that he..he left.
i just cant stop crying, he never left me, emotionally i mean. oh god.idunno wut TO DO DAMMIT!
what does he want me to do? crawl, cry till kingdom come? is it so hard to understand that i cant return his feelings?
moron, if you ever are reading this, dun leave me. i have no one, please? im..im begging you. ill do anything you want, anything just..just dun leave me. im sorry. i really am.
btw, maggie, i found my phone. call me if u have the time.
edit 1: so..he has this 'diza' girl now eh? wut kind of name is that?! thats bullshit! and why i am acting so jealous?! argh!
if thats how he wanted it then fine.
i hope u and diza burn in hell! i cant believe i wasted 3 boxes of precious cleenex for an ass like you. and i hope i so hope...that your gonna rot in hell with that diza girl, die bitch. i hate you. and yes, i am jealous! why?! because i'm not used of the idea that you have other friends who are girls, other than me. and i want to stick a hotdog to ur ass for making me feel bad and missing you like hell.
just so you know, im not taking back what i said.
i really do miss you.